I Love My Soldier: April 2005

Jason was activated 01/31/2005
His deployment ended
and he returned home 05/13/2006
(a very long 15 1/2 months)


Friday, April 29, 2005


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Yesterday .... oh yesterday. I seemed a little stressed out yesterday.. and felt like I was taking it out on the kids (nit picking them for everything they were NOT doing - which was WRONG). I felt really bad afterwards. Probably because its just ME...the stress of knowing Jason is heading back to Germany in FIVE days, me being home all the time and not having much adult interaction, trying to get all my transcription done, taking care of and entertaing a toddler, having dinner ready by 5 pm, and washing clothes for five people and keeping my house spotless all at the same time. In addition to spending quality time with the kidss and making sure the girls have their homework and reading asignments completed. I dont know, maybe I need to just chill and not be complaining so much huh? I am truly greatful for the family I have!! Yesterday I just felt so stressed.

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Anyway, Erin my oldest daughter suffers from ADHD and we have a HARD time with concentrating and staying focused. She has not completed some of the reading assignments she was supposed to have completed (and taken test on). This has been a continual problem. We have gone over this and over this and over this. Her teacher has written me notes and I have discussed this with Erin. I had to be really strict with Erin and make her SIT down and read. I would not allow her to play until she got her reading asignment done. She kept getting up to do different things and it seemed like it took her forever to read the number of pages I was asking her to read. She is on Concerta, but I really need to try and find some additonal options to help me help her with her ADHD.

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Last night me, Jason, and Alex got to sit down and play a game of Scrabble.... a favorite game of ours. Of course Jason won (hehe .... he always wins). We had a great time. Once Erin finished her reading she played Play-Doh with Hayden (which kept him from messing with our scrabble game so much). Thank you Erin!!!

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We went to bed early... as Jason had a terrible headache. He woke up during the middle of the night and felt horrible. This always concerns me because of his head injury in March of 2004!! (Jason suffered a TBI - Traumatic Brain Injury from a tree limb striking him in the head in March of 2004. He had to have emergency surgery to stop the bleeding on his brain.. We almost lost him and it was a very scary time. He spent a month in the NICU. Although the scar is a daily reminder to Jason what happened, he doesnt remember the accident and very little about the hospital stay or when we first came home , unfortunately it is something that will stay in my mind forever. If he has a headache it scares me.). Jason got up and got a shower and took some Advil and went back to bed. He said it was just a tension (stress) headache. Although he is enjoying being here with me and the kids, he seems to be stressing on the training he is missing out on in Germany. He said it will take him a week to get caught up once he gets back.

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I got up early this morning to work on my transcription... as I have lots to do today and really want to make a good paycheck (Alex's bday is next month!!) So I got my cup of coffee, got up at 5:00 am and started typing (took a break to post in my blog).

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Today Jason is going to take Hayden and they are going to do something 'just the two of them'. This will be a great and I know Hayden and Jason will enjoy their time together.

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This evening we are going over to Jason's cousin Jr's house for a cook out.. That will be fun and the kids will have a blast playing with their kids...

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well... Im off to get this work done, and the kids ready and out of here for school. Hugs everyone!!!

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

New Pictures in Photo Album

Family Portrait

I wanted to let you all know I have updated the Photo Album (right side of blog). I have added a new album from Hayden's Bday Party, one from our recent trip to the Zoo, and I added a couple of new photos in the Kid's album as well.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Having him here

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Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away!

I can't describe the feeling I am experiencing by having Jason home this past week. It goes beyond words the emotions that I am feeling. Last night I laid there and watched him sleep and I couldnt take my eyes off of him. Just knowing that in 8 more days he will be flying back to Germany breaks my heart in two. The girls and I know that Jason has to go back, but little Hayden has no idea. Its been hard with him not understanding where daddy is (no matter how we try to explain it to him). Hayden was so excited to see "daddy" and has been spending so much time with him and playing with him since he came home. I know it will be hard on Hayden again when we have to leave daddy at the airport. Oh how I dread to say goodbye again!!!!! However, I dont need to focus on that now... I just need to focus on the next eight days that I have with Jason and how special we can make this time. I love having him here with me.. how much I wish I could keep him here!!! I love that man with all my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, April 25, 2005

Jason's first days home

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Jason’s flight got in late Wednesday night, and although I hate the reason he had to come home (his grandmother’s passing), I am so happy to have him here. Erin, Alex, and Hayden surrounded him with hugs when he walked in the door. He brought home chocolates from Germany (and Gummy Bears too).

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Thursday Hayden, Jason and I went “out and about”, ended up making a trip by Toys-R-Us to get a feel of what Hayden would like for his B’day and made a stop by Krispy Kreme. Then Jason and his mom went and checked out Macie from school early (His daughter from his first marriage) and I went and picked up Erin and Alex from school.

My mom came over and watched Hayden and Alex while Me, Jason, Macie and Erin went to the viewing at the funeral home. I got to meet many people in Jason’s family that I have never met before. After the viewing, we went and picked up the kids and went over to his moms and ate dinner.

Friday we got up and got ready for the funeral. All the kids decided to stay home with my mom while Jason and I went to the funeral. It was a very emotional day as memories flooded my mind of the times I got to spend with “Nanny”. I could only imagine the lifetime of memories that Jason and his mother (and family) were reliving as we laid his grandmother to rest. After the funeral we went home and got the children, and then went to his uncle’s house and ate lunch and spent time with the family. There was a box of old pictures and everyone sat around and reminisced of old times as they went through the photos. There was also a box of stuffed animals that had belonged to Nanny, the kids were able to divided those and this really meant a lot to them.


Saturday was Hayden’s B’day party (3-years-old). We had a great time and he got lots of presents. I was so glad to have Jason home on this special day, as we had thought he would not be here for Hayden’s Birthday. After the party Jason cooked out (ribs mmm mmm good) and our families stayed and ate with us. This was so nice to be able to spend this time together as a family.


Sunday morning we skipped church, and loaded up the kids and went to the Zoo. We had an awesome time (it was a little windy and cool – but we had a blast). So many things have been added to the zoo since the last time we went and the kids had more things they could do and were able to interact with the animals more.

Sunday evening we went over to Jason’s cousin Jr’s house. We ate dinner with them and the kids got to all play and have a great time as well.

So here it is Monday morning, and I am back at my computer working. We got to keep Macie until this morning (Jason took her to school). Erin and Alex are out of school today (unused weather make-up day). Jason was going to get my oil changed, tires balanced and rotated, etc, and then he was going to run by his cousin Jr’s house and help him out with some things.

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Jason will be here until May 4th. I am going to cherish every moment we have together until he has to leave back to Germany (as once he leaves, I don’t know how long it will be before we get to see him again). I am not thinking of that day that we have to say “goodbye” again….. I am just going to enjoy every minute we have together for the next 9 days.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Jason's grandmother

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I would like to ask you to please lift up my husband Jason, and his mother as they grieve the loss of his grandmother, Alma Rae H...., who passed away this morning at the age of 87.

"Nanny" was such a sweet,caring woman who so lovingly took me into their family as her own when we got married. The past several years her health had been really bad and she suffered from Alzheimer's dementia. She had gotten to the point to where she didn't recognize anyone at all. Today she rejoices with the Lord and in His presence she has peace.

I have spoken with Jason and we are making arrangements for him to come home from Germany for the funeral.

Thank you for your prayers

Monday, April 18, 2005

Yeah Erin made Track!!

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First of all I want to let everyone know how proud I am of Erin. She made the 5th Grade Track Team. (Standing Long Jump). YEAH Erin... We are so proud of you!!! I haven't found out yet when they compete.. but as soon as we have a competition I will let you all know how she did.


I was supposed to call my Sweetie today (in Germany) at 1:00 pm my time ( 8:oo pm his time). However it took me several attempt to get through to his cell phone. I kept getting a recorded message (dont know what she was saying as I DON'T speak German). Finally I got through. However we quickly got disconnected. uhhhh. I tried again and still couldn't get through. He called me from a phone out in the hallway of the building they are living in. It was aggrivating because we spent more time dialing today than we did talking. We talked for a little while and discussed the MP work he is doing, and he told me about driving on the Autobahn. Better him than me.. i'm not made to drive that fast.


I am still feeling really weak today from being sick this past weekend. I even felt a little light headed.. Blahh. Hopefully I will regain my strength soon.

Well I have lots to finish up around the house and with my work, so better go...

Sunday, April 17, 2005

oh so sick

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Well Saturday morning I woke up and shortly afterwards felt horrible. I was sick at my stomach from about 7:00 am until about 10:00 pm. I thought I was going to die! My mother came by and got the girls and took them with her to my grandmother's 80th birthday party. When she brought them back she spent the night and helped me with the kids. I was able to rest and finally keep some Gatorade down. I had even called my buddy Sharon and had told her to let our Music Pastor know I wasnt going to be there Sunday to sing.

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However, I woke up and no longer felt sick (although I was feeling extremely weak). The kids and I got up and got ready for church (After being home all week -all day, every day- with the kids and not much adult interaction, not only did I need to hear God's word and praise him for all he has done, but I needed to fellowship with other adult christians).

We have our FIRST Faith Builder Bible Study group tonight and I am exicted about attending to hear the lesson (which is on Marriage).

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Speaking of marriage, I called my Sweetie when we walked in from church. It was about 8 pm his time and he is now working a night shift. He would be going on his shift pretty soon. We chatted abit about what all he has been doing, and what all I was doing. He talked to Erin for a bit and then we said our goodbyes (till tomorrow). I love you baby!!!!

Well I will log back on this evening and share a few words from the Bible Study tonight. Hugs everyone!

Ok. Im back... Hayden (my soon to be 3-year-old) slept through about 85% of the Bible Study before he woke up and I had to leave. A wonderful couple at our church (Syndey and Sheila F) spoke on "Keys to a Successful Marriage".

Several scriptures were referenced (Eph 5:23-24, Eph 5:25-33, Prov 18:22, Luke 6:31, Gen 2:20-25, Matthew 18:19, 2 Cor 6:14-18, Psalms 128:3, Heb 13:4, 1 Cor 7:1-6, Prov 27:15, Prov 21:19 - there were more but I had to leave).

Sidney spoke on husbands being the head of the home, just as Christ is head of the church. Men should love and adore their wives and wives should love and respect their husbands. We should take time for our spouses and treat each other as kings and queens. We should do to others as we would have them do to us. Husbands should be Godly men, and wives should be Godly women (both lead by the Holy Spirit). Neither spouse has the right to speak negative about the other. The wife is the husbands helpmate and she is there to help him (she is more loving, more sensitive). The marriage consists of the husband and wife growing together, worshiping together, praying together. We should not be unequally yoked (christian marrying a non-christian). We should be open in communication. We should never go to bed angry. Dont push each other's buttons and nag. Communicate through your problems. The physical relationship between a husband and wife is beautiful and to be shared with only each other. Spouses do not keep yourselves from the other. The wife's body does not belong to her alone but also to her husband. In the same way, the husband's body does not belong to him alone but also to his wife.

Then Sheila began to speak on "Ways to Enrich your Marriage"
She spoke of Genesis 2:24 (For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.). She spoke on how we should not hurt our spouse (we would not intentionally hurt ourselves). Wives should not nag their husbands (Proverbs 25:15 and 21:19). She was beginning to speak again on Ephesians 5:33 (However, each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband) and......... that's when Hayden woke up and started crying, so I got up and left.

Anway.. it was a great lesson and I really got a lot out of it.. I hope all of you too can read these scriptures and take them into your hearts, marriages, and lives.

Well its time for me to get these kids ready for bed!

Friday, April 15, 2005

Its Friday!!

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Yeah.. Its Friday, I'm so glad the weekend is finally here. The weather is supposed to be beautiful. The weather outlooks says "Delightful Spring Weather." We have a busy weekend planned so I am glad the weather is going to cooperate.

Let talks about last night. After a busy, crazy, hectic day... I had a nice long hot bath, it wasnt very relaxing though as the kids kept coming to the door Mommy this and Mommy that.. oh well. So....I get out, settle a few issues between the kids, settle them down, and finally get the them in bed. I was tired, but NOT sleepy at all. However I knew I needed some rest so I got in the bed anyway.. ended up tossing and turning thinking too much instead of trying to fall asleep. I turned the TV on, turned the TV off... hmmm (ok, you may think Im crazy.. but for the other Military Wives out there who read my blog this next part you have probably done before too). I was really missing my Sweetie.. so I went and got his "Axe bodyspray" and sprayed a little on my body pillow, put on one of his T-shirts and fell sound asleep.

Sick In Bed

I woke up this morning to get the kids ready for school and my oldest daughter Erin didnt want to get out of the bed. Well this is not unusual. She will be 11 this summer and as she gets older its seems getting her up and out of the bed gets harder and harder. However she said she didnt feel good. She finally got up and was trying to get ready for school then she got sick!!! My poor baby! She is asleep right now... lukily she is not running a fever..... I pray this is just a one day virus.

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Jason called this morning... (BIG SMILE).... He said they had done PT this morning (Well, his morning as it was already after 3 pm his time when he called). He has gotten the sniffles, sinus stuff and sounded worse than he did yesterday. I hope he gets to feeling better!! MMWWAAHHHH Love you baby!!!!

Well I need to get this typing done so I can run some errands today.. I also plan on cleaning the carpet (as I borrowed my moms carpet cleaner Sunday and still havent done it).

Hugs everyone!!!!

Wednesday, April 13, 2005


Blah Blah Blah

I was thinking of how I handle things, my emotions, my reactions... and sometimes I dont handle things the way I should. I am way too emotional, I talk too much, I can be a little too fiesty, and spunky should probably be my middle name. Yeah, Im far from "normal", but wouldnt that make me boring?? I am who I am.. I'm me!

ok.. enough with me thinking too much. hehe


Now on to my day.. lets see. I am finishing up my typing (Medical transcription) and will soon be heading out to the post office to mail my Sweetie another box of stuff he has requested (and some surprises from me and the kids too). He said he is mailing me something too. hmmmm I wonder what it is????. I think he went shopping at the PX. :-)

Tonight is church.. Mom will be coming by to watch Hayden (3-years-old) while Me, Erin and Alex go to church. I just love choir practice!! It really lifts me up. I look so forward to Wednesday nights.

Oh.. and Alex (my eight year daughter who SMASHED her finger).. she is doing ok. She went back to school today. Her finger still looks bad, but we have it taped to the other finger. I feel bad because they are still going to make her take the SATS.

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Alex also got a form sent home from school "Consent for Gifted Screening". She is such a smart little girl and such a sweetheart!!!


I talked to my Sweetie (Jason) on the phone.. They have lots going on and he is still adjusting to being in a foreign land. He is having to learn German. I miss him soooo much! I hope that we get to see him soon. Its only been a couple of months and he still has another 12-14 months of his deployment.... I pray that the time passes quickly!!!

Well Im gotta get things done... Hugs everyone.. and have a GREAT day!!!

Tuesday, April 12, 2005


Well my youngest daughter Alex, slammed her pinky finger in the car door. Ouch!! After a trip to the doctor yesterday, then over to the hospital for x-rays, we were awaiting the results from the doctor this morning. He said yesterday that it was probably broke, and depending on where it was broke would depend on what they would do. Good or bad... Either tape the fingers or see an Orthopedic Surgeon. Of course saying this in front on Alex (who is eight-years-old) was not good as she got very scared. So we were praying that it was not bad! I called the doctor this morning and he said that there did NOT appear to be a fracture. He said there may be a slight one at the top of the finger, but if so it was not bad. He said to keep the finger taped to the ring finger and if it doesnt get better in a week to come back in and they may need to re-x-ray it.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

A bad day!!!

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Today is just a bad day!!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Another day in the life of me

Girl In Bed

Well the kids are all in bed and its quiet around the house...sometimes too quiet...but sometimes not! So it will be bedtime for me soon and it is still strange to think that within an hour or so my hubby will be waking up (in Germany) to start his day.

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I did get to talk to Jason today. Normally we talk for 15-20 minutes, but today we talked for almost an hour. YEP... we are eating those phone cards up.. HEY ANYONE WANT TO DONATE SOME CALLING CARDS?? lol. Once the phone cards are gone I can call him some too. He has a cell phone that has free incoming calls on his end. I got a good international plan (8 cents a minute). I wouldnt take anything for the time we get to talk on the phone. I am just grateful that we have that opportunity. So many people who have deployed spouses dont get to talk much at all.

Today was hectic... Hayden (who is soon to be 3) was full of energy today. He calmed down some after the girls got home from school. Then my mom came by to visit with us for a bit. She has been such a blessing in my life and has always been there for me. She has been a big help since Jason has been gone. (I Love you Momma!!!!) Well, the kids and I ran to the store, bought a bday present for a party we have to go to Saturday and came home to chill, get baths, and get ready for bed. Now.. here I am.

Oh.. I made some more changes to my blog... (hehe I am always making changes). I had "I will be here" - By Stephen Curtis Chapman as the background song... but it played really slow and didnt sound right. So I changed it to "I wonder what God was thinking" by Newsong. GREAT SONG! I also added an upcoming event list/bdays/holidays. As the event passes it gets marked off and then deleted. I moved a few things around too.. and also added a place where I can check the weather in Germany.

Well Im outta here.. gotta get a shower and get ready for bed.

I Will Be Here

I Will Be Here
(Steven Curtis Chapman)

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
and the sun does not appear
I will be here
If in the dark, we lose sight of love
Hold my hand, and have no fear
'Cause I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to cryin'
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
I will be here

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I will be here
Just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

Tomorrow morning, if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I will be here
Oh, I will be here.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005


Im just NOT in the best of moods today.. I really really miss my baby!!!

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Erin and Alex

Since the time changed Sunday, Jason is now only 7 hours ahead of us. This is actually much better than 8 hours. I know what you must be thinking.. "what difference does ONE hour make?".. well it makes a BIG difference. Before the time change Jason would often call around 2:00 pm (our time at home) which would have been bed time for him (10:00 pm). Now that the time has changed he can call me a little later. See he told me yesterday that he would call me at 3:00 pm (which is still 10:00 pm for him) because he wanted to make sure he got to talk to the girls (see by that time they are already home from school). They were so glad to get to talk to him - to hear his voice - to share their day with him - to ask him questions. I have been relaying messages between him and the children but today they got to talk to each other and this meant so much to the kids and to Jason. Not only is Jason a wonderful husband, but he is such a wonderful father too.

I had two daughters from my previous marriage (Erin and Alex) when I married Jason, he too had a daughter (Macie) from his previous marriage and together we have a son (Hayden). We are a family united in love, we are a real family and nothing will ever change that. Jason has treated my daughters as if they were his own flesh and blood. People have said before "oh you have his, hers and ours" and I remember him once saying "no, they are ALL ours".

His is such a loving and caring father. When we get off the phone and we say our "I love yous" and "goodbyes" he always says "Tell the kids I love them and miss them". I always tell them what Jason said and it makes them so happy to hear that he is thinking of them too.

Jason, We love you baby...
we all love you and miss you so very much!!!

Good Morning

Good Morning
(ok, I have my coffee so I am ready to blog..hehe),
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I am up making a quick note in my blog as I get the girls ready for school. They have SAT's this week. They went to bed early and are well rested. I got up and fixed them a hot breakfast instead of cereal or a waffle. The weather is going to be beautiful today... high around 80.. but starting tomorrow I think its more rain (uhhh). I guess I better get used to it.."April showers bring May flowers".

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I spoke with Jason yesterday (we are talking every day on the phone). We had a really great time talking yesterday and talked for 45 minutes. Communication is important in any marriage, but when you are thousands of miles apart and communication is all you have, you really learn the significance of just how important it is. We chit chat, talk about our day, how we are feeling, we talk serious, and we laugh and cut up. I love my phone calls from my baby!!! He is without a doubt the love of my life!!!

I also requested a free phone card today from an organization called Operation Uplink. They send calling cards to deployed soldiers once every 60 days.

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Well Im off to get the girls to school. When I get back home I will be busy working/typing (Medical Transcription).

Monday, April 04, 2005

First Weekend in April

Well Friday night the girls spent the night with their aunt Kerri, Hayden and I just chilled around the house.

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Saturday I washed the car (haha cant tell it now.. Having a black car is awful during the spring with all this pollen), then I cut the grass and started clearing out the flower bed so I can plant some flowers later.

Place Of Worship

Sunday was church, then went to my moms for lunch (took a little Sunday afternoon nap while I was over there), then back to the church for a meeting (I am going to be one of the teachers at our new "Faith Builder's Bible Study" which will take place one Sunday night a month - I am really exicted to see what the Lord will do with this!!).

Heart Eyes
Jason, I love you baby!!!