I Love My Soldier: March 2006













Jason was activated 01/31/2005
His deployment ended
and he returned home 05/13/2006
(a very long 15 1/2 months)



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Thursday, March 30, 2006

I've Been Tagged.....

I've been tagged by... "No average girl"

10 Weird Things about Myself!

OK... I am supposed to list 10 "weird" things. I don't know if these are actually "weird"...but here are some things you may not know about me....

1. I have OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) when it comes to my house! I can not stand things to be dirty or out of place. I run around all the time putting things back where they go. It really bothers me that I am so obsessed about it! Sometimes something will happen and I cant clean my house one day.. and someone will stop by....OH I hate it when that happens (if my house is not up to par).

2. I struggle with low self-esteem. I try really hard to look pretty and stay fit and healthy, but inside sometimes I am not happy when I look in the mirror. It is something I am working on.

3. I cut and color my own hair... I have not been to the beauty shop in years!!!!!

4. I am NOT a pack rat... NOPE NOT ME!!!! If we don't use it or wear it.. I get rid of it! Hmmm does this fall under my #1 weird thing?

5. I believe I have ADHD (Attention Deficit HyperActivity Disorder - just like my oldest daughter). I am hyper and I find it hard to concentrate on ONE particular thing at a time. My mind rushes around and I try to do many things at once and often can't focus on what I need to. It really bothers me.

6. I drink coffee.. 24/7!!! I love it! Hmmm.. maybe that is why I am so hyper...hehe.

7. Ok a MAJOR pet peeve. I CANT STAND people who stand too close behind me in a line.. BACK UP OUT OF MY SPACE!!!! AHHH! LOL!

8. I love to clean my house.. but I HATE to put up clothes.. uhhh!! But of course I do it.. but I really hate it!!

9. I love to do lunges... I can just be walking through the house and will just stop and do 10!! Its a great exercise.. and when ever I think about it.. I just stop and do it!

10. I can listen to a song over and over and over again!!! However alot of times I will have on my iPod (while im cleaning of course... or exercising/running) so no one else can hear it anyway.


An amazing quote!!



"Be kinder than necessary,
for everyone you meet
is fighting some kind of battle..."

- Kit Chapmon.


Isn't this an amazing quote? Have you ever been offended by someone because they didn't speak to you when you saw them, or they seemed distant lately, or you had not heard from them in a while.. I know I have. I also know people have probably felt the same way about me at times. Sometimes I get so caught up in what is going on in my life and having to handle everything on my own, the kids, the house, my emotional state of missing my husband...that I have pulled away from people and basically disappeared. I hope no one takes offense in it (because it is nothing personal). I don't want to make it sound like my life is the most difficult thing ever, because I know many people have more trials and struggles than I do...but I do have it really hard at times.

However... I have an amazing husband who loves me, amazing children who bless my life daily, and a Lord that will take my burdens from me, so that I can be the person I am called to be.

ok.. I gotta get back to work..

Love ya!!
((hugs))
Deanne


Tuesday, March 28, 2006

I feel good!!

I feel really good today. Very positive today! Jason and I had a wonderful conversation via web cam earlier. I can't believe in TWO months he will be home!

Well it looks like he will be going to BNOC for two weeks mid April. I sure will miss seeing him on web cam during that time.. I have been spoiled!

The weather is beautiful today and I havent run in OVER A WEEK. This evening the kids and I are going to the park/track at Alex's school. I have done so good about getting in shape.. and I know I dont have too far to go to be where I want to be. I want to be in tip top shape when Jason gets back!! :-)


Jason.. I love you baby!!!!!
Kiss..Kiss.
hehe I miss you and can't wait to see you. :-)



ok.. well I gotta go get the kids from school..

Ya'll have a blessed day!
Love ya,
((hugs)) Deanne


Let it go for 2006 ....By T.D. Jakes

Did someone need to hear this today? My friend Monica sent it out in an email and I thought I should share it. Love ya ((hugs)) ~*D*~

Let it go for 2006 ....By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not forus. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat, I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life,then you need to...... Let it go!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ...... Let them go!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth..... Let them go!!

If someone has angered you ........ Let it go!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...... Let them go!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...... Let it go!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents..... Let it go!!

If you have a bad attitude....... Let it go!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...... Let it go!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...... Let it go!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....... Let it go!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves....... Let them go!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ......... Let it go!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to...... Let it go!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2006 !!!
Let it go!! The Battle is the Lord's!


Monday, March 27, 2006

Wow!!!!!!!!!

Ok, someone has to tell me.. where did all these sweet people came from who have left these comments? I have had more comments today than I have had the whole time I have been blogging (exaggerating a little, but I have had lots of comments today). You all seem like Godly women and your prayers and kind words really mean a lot to me.

Well.. I haven’t updated in a over a week. so here it goes.....


Things seem to be going great. The kids were out of school last week and that was stressful having them home and trying to work (medical transcription) too. I love them so much....but hehe it was a relief to see them get back to school today.

Jason has been told about an AGR job that is he really interested in. If he gets this job we will be moving about an hour and a half/two hours from where we are now. I will miss my friends and family here, but its not too far.. and it is a great opportunity for our family. I think this would really be the best thing for us... (for MANY reason)... so if you would keep this job opportunity in your prayers it would really mean a lot to me.

Jason has had some problems with a torn meniscus and is going to see another orthopedic doctor Wednesday. Please keep this in your prayers too. Hopefully they will not need to do surgery, but if its needed then they must do it. The only thing his knee is interfering with is him getting to do BNOC while he is over in Germany. Going through BNOC would be a great opportunity for him and allow him to be promoted in the near future. They said today that he might still get to go to BNOC even with an injured knee (of course that is if he doesnt have to have surgery during the time frame of BNOC). If he goes to BNOC it will be from April 9 - 24 (not sure of the dates). During that time we would only be able to communicate by phone (some) and not have Web cam.

Jason should be coming home anywhere between mid May to the beginning of June. We dont know an exact date.


Oh and my mom got discharged from the hospital Sunday afternoon. She spent two weeks in the hospital with pneumonia. She is doing much better, but still feels weak. Thank you for your prayers.

I do have ONE more prayer request. We had a family friend lose her battle with breast cancer this past weekend. She has gone on to be with the Lord. She was such a very special lady and a blessing to know. Her name is Linda Scott. Please keep her family in your prayers. She left behind a husband, three kids (my age) and 5 grandchildren. Thank you.

Well... I have things I need to go and do. Thank you again all so much.. and please someone tell me where all you nice ladies came from!!!

Love ya,
((hugs))
Deanne


Tuesday, March 21, 2006

It's all good

"Adversity is like rain. It is required for growth. Without it you will never put down strong roots and flourish. On the other hand too much rain can turn into a flood!!!!!!!!!!!"

Well yesterday it was flooding!!! But today is a little better; It will all be ok. Yesterday just started out a little crazy, then turned into this really EMOTIONAL day. I get so emotional and confused...but its all good.

Weather wise, it really is a beautiful day. I am busy working, but the kids have been outside playing (it is Spring Break here). Yesterday was a yucky rainy day (in more ways than one), so I am glad to see a little sunshine today.

Love ya'll... Thank you for your continued prayers!


Monday, March 20, 2006

horrible day!!!!!



Today has turned into a horrible day.. horrible!!!! oh. I am just so stressed out. I dont want to talk about it.. I just want to scream, I just want to cry.......... Why does my life have to be so complicated???? :-(


Saturday, March 18, 2006

Happy Birthday Jason!!!!!!




Happy Birthday to my hubby... Today is Jason's 33rd B'Day. I wish he was here.... it is yet another special day we are having to spend apart (HIS special day). He was gone last year on his birthday too. They were in Ft. Leonard Wood about to head to Germany. The year before that he was in the hospital on his birthday (when he had the Traumatic Brain Injury from a tree accident). I will be glad when we can actually celebrate his birthday together!!

With Jason being 7 hours ahead me... I wanted to wish him a happy birthday. So I knew he would be checking his emails this morning.. so last night I sent one so that he would have it when he woke up. Then at 6:45 am this morning, I called to wish him a happy birthday (of course it was already 1:45 in the afternoon there). Then I went and got taxes done (haha fun).... then when I got home I got on web cam and spent about two hours on there with him (since today was his off day).

This is the weekend that the girls go to their dads (oh I guess some of you dont know.. their dad moved from Indiana back to Alabama.. so they are getting to see him every other weekend now). Erin didnt want to go this weekend..but Alex did. I know it is a big adjustment from going to hardly seeing their dad at all to going over there every other weekend. The kids were so used to being home with me all of the time, with their stuff, their beds, their friends around here. Erin loves her daddy VERY MUCH... but she wanted to stay home this weekend. THEN her friend ends up calling and wants her to spend the night Friday night and go ice skating today.. so that is where Erin is. Ok... Erin just called. Maddison wants her to spend the night another night. I will let her. Maddison is a great kid and has a really nice family. So.. it is just me and Hayden this weekend.

My mom is in the hospital with bronchitis getting oxygen. She has been in there since Monday. She was hospitalized 2 1/2 years ago with pneumonia and put on a respirator. She is NO WHERE close to that bad, but she is having to stay hospitalized, getting medication and oxygen. Please keep her in your prayers.

4:47 PM (UPDATE) - My mom's x-rays are now showing pneumonia. Please keep her in your prayers. Thanks!!!

Well... I hope you all have a blessed day. Keep me in your prayers too, I am dealing with a lot of personal issues right now and I cant really talk about them, but if you would just lift me up I would greatly appreciate it.

Love ya'll!!


Friday, March 17, 2006

Oh how I love my soldier!



Oh how I love my soldier! I still can't believe that possibly as short as two months he could be home! It seems unreal. We have been apart for so long, and seen each other in person basically twice (two weeks each time).. and now to know in a couple of months he will be home for good!!! WOW!!

Well I am looking forward to his return!!! We have a trip planned to the beach the end of June for a week and I am sooooo looking forward to that! It will be awesome for us to spend family time together. I am really trying hard to get in EXTRA good shape too. I know I am not big or anything, but I want to be tight and tone...hehe. When he was here at Christmas I weighed about 123 lbs. Now I am down to 113!!!! YEAH!!! I have been watching what I eat, exercising, and recently took up running... "exercise, exercise, slim those thighs, slim those thighs"!!

ok.. well I gotta get back to work... Ya'll have a most excellent day!!!
Love ya!


Thursday, March 16, 2006

Quotes



Here are some great quotes that I have loved.. and wanted to share them with you. Enjoy!



"life isn't measured
by the number of breaths we take
but the moments
that take our breath away.."



"Above all,
watch with glittering eyes
the whole world around you
because the greatest secrets
are always hidden
in the most unlikely of places
Those who don't believe in magic
will never find it.."
- Roald Dahl



"People will forget
what you said
people will forget
what you did
but people will never forget
how you made them feel..."


Tuesday, March 14, 2006

deeper and darker.



Ok I took out the blonde highlights!!! I wanted it deeper, darker. I really do like it darker! Jason has seen it (pics and web cam) I know he doesnt really like it red.. actually he doesnt because he hated it last time I did this. But I love it!

He said he wants it LONG... so I am growing it out and will one day have those long locks that he loves so much, hehe but they will be long red locks. We gotta meet in the middle. He gets me with the long hair, I get to choose the color. ;-) Rememember when Mommas happy, everyones happy. hehe


Anxious about Jason's return... is this NORMAL?


Jason has been deployed for the past 13 1/2 months. He has been home twice during his deployment (2 weeks each time). In 2 1/2 more months he will be home. How do I feel about this? Of course I am happy, I want my husband home (I want us to be a family again), but a part of me is very worried, very anxious, very unsettled. It is a scary feeling too. 16 months apart is a very long time... and of course I love my husband dearly... but for those of you who may be military and if you have ever spent a year and a half away from your spouse, learned to become independent in many things...you may understand what I'm talking about.
Here is something I found about POST-DEPLOYMENT that I found very interesting.. PLEASE READ.

  • Expect an adjustment period no matter how happy you are to be home and how happy your family is to have you back.

  • Anticipate doubts and worries. Anxiety is a predictable part of reuniting.

  • Expect change. Recognize that you, your spouse and your children have all changed to some degree. Everything from tastes and interests to the way the household is run may have changed. Make small, gradual changes and ease back into your role in the family. This process can take several weeks or months, depending on how long you and your family were apart and each family member's ability to cope with change and stress.

  • Be prepared for the reappearance of old problems. Separation does not erase problems, and problems do not solve themselves. Taking a break from the issue and stepping back may have helped you and your spouse to gain a new perspective, but the issue itself may still exist. There may also be new issues to address.

  • Be realistic in your expectations. Forget your fantasies, and let things happen naturally.

  • Share your feelings, and accept others' feelings, whatever they may be. Feelings are never right or wrong; they just are. Expect that the deployment has been difficult for everyone, and be prepared for all sorts of feelingsrelief, hope, anxiety and even resentment.

  • Be prepared for challenges as you try to reestablish physical intimacy with your spouse. Take your time getting reacquainted, and do not try to rush sexual relations to make up for lost time!

  • Take time to communicate and reconnect with your family and friends. Plan family time to help bring everyone back together. Make time for just you and your spouse. Plan some special time for you and each of your children to get reacquainted.

  • Be aware that you and your family have changed to some degree. Your family has had to keep goingworking, going to school, maintaining the householdin your absence, and it may take some time for you to blend back into the routine. Keep an open mind as you re-create your role in the family. Commend your family for the good things they have done, and do not try to change routines that are working well.

  • Avoid a busy schedule, and make some time for yourself to get back into interests or hobbies that you missedthe positive things that bring you joy and help you relax. If you do not have good hobbies, create some.

  • Recognize that deployment can be very difficult, and do not be afraid to talk to someoneyour spouse, your family, your friends, a chaplainor seek professional help if you are having problems adjusting to being back.

  • After the initial reunion, discuss the division of chores in the household.
    Be patient, and give yourself time to adjust. Recognize that you have been away for quite some time, and do not expect everything to go back to the way it was overnight.

  • Understand that, even if you did not find the deployment stressful or difficult, it can still have an impact on you and your family in ways that you may not realize.


Thursday, March 09, 2006

NEW Pics... Ive colored my hair!!


Where is the color you say... look below. I went RED.. Well actually it is a darker shade than these pictures show (the flash is making it look a little brighter). Actually, it's multi-colored. Red, brown, dark brown, some blonde highlights. LOL Im lovin' it!



CHEESE!!!



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Monday, March 06, 2006

Everything is ok

Its been TWO months since I took a break, and well honestly I am still taking a break. I just wanted to post below about Erin and Alex and how proud of them I am.

Everything in my life is pretty much the same as it was the day I did my last post, except that we are now two months closer to Jason coming home. We are looking at some time the end of May, or first week in June. Not sure yet.

Well... I'm still as busy as ever... so I gotta cut this one short.

To all my faithful readers.. I Love ya'll and miss you and Im sorry I havent kept in touch.


PROUD PARENT

~*ALEX*~

Last month my youngest daughter, Alex received a Good Citizenship Award in her class. She has such good conduct and goes out of her way to help and do for others. I was so proud of her for this accomplishment.Alex is also in RLC - the gifted program at her school. She will be taking a trip to the Dolphin Island Sea Lab in October.

~*ERIN*~

A few weeks ago my oldest daughter, Erin wanted to audition for the ACDA Young Voices Festival. Several students from the middle school choir were going to audition. We drove out to Inverness where different schools were scheduled to audition at different times. Well today Erin received word that she made the cut! I was so happy for her. Now we will go to the ACDA Young Voices Festival at Auburn University in May.


Here is a litte more about the ACDA "The Alabama ACDA Young Voices Festival is a unique opportunity for 4th-9th grade students in the state of Alabama. Young Voices offers choral students a challenging opportunity to perform advanced literature under the direction of nationally recognized music educators. The 14th Annual Young Voices Festival will be held on the Campus of Auburn University on May 5-6, 2006"!Erin will also be participating in the Smoky Mountain Music Festival in Gatlinburg, TN in April.



CONGRATS to my girls.. I am so proud of both of you!!