I Love My Soldier

pics redone

2006-09-10T13:34:00.000-05:00

New pictures

2006-09-01T11:04:00.000-05:00

I am not sure if anyone still comes on here anymore....but just in case I wanted to share with you some new pictures of us.

Also, don't forget you can find me on myspace too (several of the people who used to frequent my blog - now keep up with me on myspace and I really enjoy talking to them). Here is the page, just cut and paste it into your browser. http://myspace.com/born2bfit

Love ya'll,
Deanne

Myspace

2006-05-26T11:54:00.000-05:00

Hey everyone...

Well since Jason is home I will no longer be blogging on
lifebackhome.blogspot.com (as it was created to reflect on our life back home while Jason was deployed).

However I do have a MYSPACE account if any of you want to keep up with me that way.

You can find me at
http://myspace.com/born2bfit

Thank you for all of your prayers and sweet comments that kept me going the 15 1/2 months that Jason was deployed! I made some very special friends on here and hope to hear from you all in the future as well. If you leave comments on here it will still go to my email address so I will still get your comments. If you have a Myspace account you can leave me messages there too... or if not you can still look at my profile on there to see how I am doing!

Love you all!!
Deanne

Outstanding Female Choralist!

2006-05-16T08:47:00.000-05:00

Last night Erin had an Awards Ceremony at school. She won the 6th grade female outstanding choralist! A male and female from each grade was chosen by the choir director. We are so very proud of her!

He's Home!!!

2006-05-13T16:30:00.000-05:00

05/13/06

He's home...
Will share more pics soon

TOMORROW he will be home - TODAY is our anniversary

2006-05-12T09:15:00.000-05:00

Well my hubby will FINALLY be home... TOMORROW morning (Saturday the 13th) is the day!! YEAH!!!! The bus rolls in about 8:00 am and we will be at the Armory awaiting his arrival! I didnt think this day would EVER come.. but it is finally here! We are just all so excited!

Oh and my daugther Erin had an allergic reaction to her friend's bodywash that she used last weekend and she is broke out in whelps and itching. We have been to her pediatrician doctor and to the ER. We have her on medication and she seems to be feeling much better and the whelps should start going down soon. She woke up this morning and the whelps were almost gone already!!

Oh and Happy Anniversay to me and Jason. Today is our Anniversay!!! Too bad he couldnt be home today...but hey tomorrow is good enough for me!

My husband coming home..... while another family grieves

2006-05-09T12:20:00.000-05:00

We originally thought it would be Saturday when Jason and his unit got back to Alabama, but now it looks like it may be Sunday (and/or even Monday). Either way soon,....very very soon my husband will be home with us again.

As I sit here excited about my husband returning home to me.. my heart is deeply saddened as yesterday I learned of a friend dying. A guy I went to school with named Kevin Jennings passed away Sunday at the age of 33. My youngest daughter Alex told me when she got in the car Monday (as his youngest daughter Hunter is in her grade). She said it was a "heart attack". I was later told it was an aortic aneurysm.

I havent talked to Kevin in a long time, but would see him and his wife in passing. I saw his mom almost every day picking up their daughters from school. I cant begin to imagine how his wife Audra, and their daughters are feeling, how his brother Chris must feel loosing his only brother, and his parents loosing a child. I pray that they find comfort in their precious memories of Kevin.

This just breaks my heart. This just really bothers me.

Please keep the Jennings family in your prayers!!

Jason will be home......

2006-05-06T09:41:00.000-05:00

Hey everyone,

Sorry I havent posted. Its just been busy here (as always). :-) Well Jason is BACK in the USA! Not home with me yet (but at the base in another state where they will be demobilized)...but he will be home with me very soon. YEAH (doing a dance). Jason and three other soliders got to come back Advanced Party. The rest of the unit arrives the frist of next week. They should be heading HOME hopefully next weekend!!!!! Oh I am just so excited. The kids are so exicted. The family is so excited. Jason is so excited. The past 15 1/2 months have been sooooo long and it is finally come to an end. Soon, very, very soon... my sweet love with be in my arms again!

Thank you to all of you who post comments I do read each of them. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers, it means so very much.

Talk to you soon.....
((hugs))
Deanne

These pictures tell a story.....

2006-04-24T22:40:00.000-05:00

We had an wonderful time at Hayden's party Saturday night. There was a total of about 16 kids there. Everyone had a blast! The party was out at Pump It Up in Trussville.. it was from 6:30 pm - 8:30 pm. By the time we got home it was about 9:15 pm and Hayden wanted to see all of his presents. Of course then he wanted them opened! Hehe well it was his DAY so we stayed up playing with toys until 11:30 pm!!!! I feel bad, but we ended up skipping church Sunday (we were all SOOOO tired) and the kids played all day.

Sunday was also my brother and sister-in-laws baby tea. Their first child "Landon" is due the end of May. I am so happy for them!!!!! My sister-in-law (Fletcher) looked so beautiful. I have always thought pregnant women were just beautiful and just glow with radiance. Her and Johnny are going to be such wonderful parents.

Of course this weekend also consisted of cutting grass. ohhhh I will be glad that I don't have the whole summer like I did last year to do this chore. This is one thing I will be sooooo glad to give back to Jason.

After getting my typing done today, I got outside and finally cleaned out the flower beds (some). When I get paid I want to go buy a bird bath and some flowers to plant. However some perennials (can't recall their name... pretty tall yellow flowers with big green wide leaves) are starting to come up (haven't bloomed yet of course)... and the Hosta looks pretty too. I want it to look really pretty before Jason comes home.

Well I know I'm not blogging as much as I was in the past... but I am staying so busy. I will try to blog more often so everyone knows what all is going on these days.

LOVE YA'll!!! :-)
((hugs))
Deanne

Happy Birthday Hayden!

2006-04-21T22:07:00.000-05:00

Today is my son's 4th birthday!! Happy Birthday Hayden! We love you so much! He really wanted his daddy to be home for his birthday, but as stated in a previous blog, Jason should be home in about three weeks.

However we are having a BIG birthday party for him tomorrow night at Pump It Up "The inflatable party zone" "Giant, soft, interactive, fun-filled inflatables - to bounce, slide, climb on and jump". Sounds like fun doesnt it? He is really looking forward to this.

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday dear Hayden.

Happy Birthday to you!

Congrats Erin!!!

2006-04-21T22:05:00.000-05:00

Erin (my oldest daughter who will be 12 in July) is in the 6th grade at our local middle school. She tried out for the school track team and made it! She qualifies for the 100 meter and the 800 meter. Their track meet will be April 26th.

I am so proud of her!! :-)

A heartbeat away

2006-04-21T18:23:00.000-05:00

Sixteen months ago my husband Jason (who is a Sgt in the Army National Guard) was called to active duty. His unit was called to serve as Military Police at several bases in Germany. Although I have been grateful that he was not in a war zone, I will say the time and distance has been extremely stressful on all of us.

The first several months into his deployment I cried myself to sleep every night. I missed him so much and thought that this deployment would never come to an end. I would become extremely overwhelmed with my life, having to handle the household and children all by myself. The kids would cry and miss him, I would cry and miss him. However, I had to be the backbone of the family to be strong and supportive and keep everything together.

Throughout the past 16 months I have really grown as an individual and in the Lord. I realized just how strong of a woman that I really am. God has used the trials, heartaches, and adversity in my life to be experiences that have allowed me to grow to a higher level of understanding of His Word and His promises.

There are times when I was so lonely, stressed out, overwhelmed but God kept reassuring me of those promises. God is a God of love and His word says “The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8. It was a promise from God that I was never alone!

“Thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.” Isaiah 43: 1-2. I knew there was nothing that we could go through that the Lord would not be right there by our side!

I also wanted to share a post from THIS blog that I wrote on May 26, 2005.

"Jason, When I woke-up this morning I was overwhelmed with thoughts of you. I just want to tell you how much "I love you"... over and over and over again. Yet, my words can never come close to reproducing the love that I have and how I truly feel about you. I love and miss you more than you will ever know. The love that we share is what gets me through every minute that I am without you. As each day passes by and night comes, I pray to have dreams of you, to feel as though I am in your arms again. And when I wake up to the reality that you are not here, I look at your pictures and anxiously a wait to when we will chat again on the Web Cam. I get overwhelmed when I think of the physical distance between us, but then I realize in reality you are only a heartbeat away! I love you, Deanne"

My husband will FINALLY be arriving home (for good) sometime mid May (we are not sure of a date yet), and what an amazing reunion it will be.

Thank you to all of you who have kept us in your prayers. Your loving words, thoughts, prayers and your friendship has meant so much to me.

We are attending a new church.

2006-04-17T11:39:00.000-05:00

Hey everyone... I hope you all had a WONDERFUL Easter!!

I am so grateful for what the Lord is doing in my life.

We have been at the same church for the past 6 years, and although we have truly grown in the Lord and have been faithful servants to be used for His glory in the ministry, I have felt for some time now that we were not where He needed us to be. A door has been opened and the kids and I have started attending a different church. This past Sunday was our second Sunday attending the church (and we went Wednesday night). We are so excited to become a part of this ministry and the wonderful opportunities that the Lord has in store for us. The children's ministry is awesome and the kids are really enjoying it.

Erin will be moving up to the Youth when school starts back and I am so excited about this, because the Youth Pastor is my friend Laney's husband, Geno. I sat in with the Youth this past Wednesday night and was truly touched by Geno's dedication to ministering to the Youth about our Lord.

I am also excited about joining the choir because I love to sing His praises! I have talked to the Music Leader Kim this past Sunday and will be going to practice this Wednesday night.

Hayden too is loving the church and his classes. It is a true blessing to all of us.

This is something I have been praying about for some time now... and I am so excited about what the Lord has in store for me and my family!!

Praise....Praise His Name!!!
Love you!
Deanne

Soon, very soon!!

2006-04-14T10:37:00.000-05:00

As you know, my sweet hubby and I get to talk every day on our web cams...and that really does help, but nothing can compare to having him back home again. That day is getting closer and closer. Although we DON'T have an official day yet... he could possibly be home by mid May!

Our son Hayden loves to make wishes when he blows the dandelion. Usually I can hear him whispering "I wish for a real puppy" (which he will get once we move and have a bigger yard), but yesterday I heard him whisper "I wish daddy was home for my birthday". Ohhhhh this just broke my heart. Because Hayden's birthday is April 22 and Jason will not be home by then. I told him that daddy would love to be here for his birthday, but it would be a few weeks later before he got to come home. He smiled and hugged me and said ok.

It has really been hard on Hayden, the girls, me, Jason, and his mom...and it is so hard to believe that soon this will all be over. Soon, VERY soon... Jason will be home with us again!

Getting ready for Easter.

2006-04-12T10:57:00.000-05:00

Hey everyone... sorry I haven't posted in a few days. It has been busy as always.

We had a pretty good weekend. The storm that blew through knocked out our electricity Friday night, but we had it back on by Saturday afternoon. Sunday we went to church.....we actually visted a church that my friend Laney goes to. Her husband is the youth pastor there. It was a really great service and the kids loved children's church too. We are all really excited and believe this may be the church where the Lord is leading us. We are going back tonight!

Yesterday I went and got my easter basket shopping done! Fun, fun, fun. I LOVE making baskets for the kids! My children are so precious to me!!!!!

Jason and I are still talking every day on the web cam. I love that man soooooo much! I can't wait for him to be home and for us to be a family again (We are a family... but you know what I mean). He means the world to me, much more that I could ever tell him. We are so blessed to have each other, to be a family.

I am praying that when he gets back he will start going back to church with us. He had some issues with the church we had been attending (as did I) so I was pretty sure that he would not go back there. But since the kids and I have changed churches I am hoping he will go with us (keep this in your prayers please).

Hayden had a Easter party at 3K this morning. It was fun!!! We just walked in the door a few minutes ago... so I will have to cut this one short and get busy with my typing (the one that pays me. hehe).

Thank you all for sweet loving comments... they brighten my day when I read them!!

Love ya'll!!
((hugs))
Deanne

It is FRIDAY!!! :-)

2006-04-07T08:21:00.000-05:00

Hey everyone!!

Things have just been busy here as always! :-)

I am still talking to Jason every day on the web cam, and counting down the time until he comes home. They could possibly be leaving Germany in as little as a month, then of course they go back to Ft. ...... (I'm not supposed to say) for demobilization. However I am not getting my hopes up about a certain day (not just yet).. because it may be the end of May, first of June before I see him. We just don't know.

Jason found out he will NOT be going to BNCOC (school I mentioned below - for those two weeks). Because of his medical profile and having to have knee surgery! However, they are not going to perform surgery there (because of time constraints), but will have to have it done when he gets back home (Torn meniscus).

The kids and I have a busy weekend planned. My nephew has a bday party Saturday and the girls have another bday party to attend Sunday too. Sunday we are going to visit my friend Laney's church. I have not seen her in a long time and I am looking forward to seeing her and visiting the church where her husband is the youth pastor.

I did some yard work this week (well I cut the grass and used the weedeater). I will just have a couple of months of having to do it and will gladly give that duty back to Jason!!! (I have to say last summer was tuff... keeping up with the house, the yard, the kids, and all I have to do). However, I need to do something with those old flower beds. I want it to look really pretty for Jason when he gets home. hehe.. I wish I could get one of those make over shows to come fix a few things with the yard and house before he got home (that would be cool!! - I love those shows).

Well I have LOTS to do ... so I'm gonna go for now. YEAH its Friday!!!

Love ya!
Have an AWESOME day!
((hugs))
Deanne

I've Been Tagged.....

2006-03-30T22:00:00.000-06:00

I've been tagged by... "No average girl"

10 Weird Things about Myself!

OK... I am supposed to list 10 "weird" things. I don't know if these are actually "weird"...but here are some things you may not know about me....

1. I have OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) when it comes to my house! I can not stand things to be dirty or out of place. I run around all the time putting things back where they go. It really bothers me that I am so obsessed about it! Sometimes something will happen and I cant clean my house one day.. and someone will stop by....OH I hate it when that happens (if my house is not up to par).

2. I struggle with low self-esteem. I try really hard to look pretty and stay fit and healthy, but inside sometimes I am not happy when I look in the mirror. It is something I am working on.

3. I cut and color my own hair... I have not been to the beauty shop in years!!!!!

4. I am NOT a pack rat... NOPE NOT ME!!!! If we don't use it or wear it.. I get rid of it! Hmmm does this fall under my #1 weird thing?

5. I believe I have ADHD (Attention Deficit HyperActivity Disorder - just like my oldest daughter). I am hyper and I find it hard to concentrate on ONE particular thing at a time. My mind rushes around and I try to do many things at once and often can't focus on what I need to. It really bothers me.

6. I drink coffee.. 24/7!!! I love it! Hmmm.. maybe that is why I am so hyper...hehe.

7. Ok a MAJOR pet peeve. I CANT STAND people who stand too close behind me in a line.. BACK UP OUT OF MY SPACE!!!! AHHH! LOL!

8. I love to clean my house.. but I HATE to put up clothes.. uhhh!! But of course I do it.. but I really hate it!!

9. I love to do lunges... I can just be walking through the house and will just stop and do 10!! Its a great exercise.. and when ever I think about it.. I just stop and do it!

10. I can listen to a song over and over and over again!!! However alot of times I will have on my iPod (while im cleaning of course... or exercising/running) so no one else can hear it anyway.

An amazing quote!!

2006-03-30T09:13:00.000-06:00

"Be kinder than necessary,
for everyone you meet
is fighting some kind of battle..."

- Kit Chapmon.

Isn't this an amazing quote? Have you ever been offended by someone because they didn't speak to you when you saw them, or they seemed distant lately, or you had not heard from them in a while.. I know I have. I also know people have probably felt the same way about me at times. Sometimes I get so caught up in what is going on in my life and having to handle everything on my own, the kids, the house, my emotional state of missing my husband...that I have pulled away from people and basically disappeared. I hope no one takes offense in it (because it is nothing personal). I don't want to make it sound like my life is the most difficult thing ever, because I know many people have more trials and struggles than I do...but I do have it really hard at times.

However... I have an amazing husband who loves me, amazing children who bless my life daily, and a Lord that will take my burdens from me, so that I can be the person I am called to be.

ok.. I gotta get back to work..

Love ya!!
((hugs))
Deanne

I feel good!!

2006-03-28T14:30:00.000-06:00

I feel really good today. Very positive today! Jason and I had a wonderful conversation via web cam earlier. I can't believe in TWO months he will be home!

Well it looks like he will be going to BNOC for two weeks mid April. I sure will miss seeing him on web cam during that time.. I have been spoiled!

The weather is beautiful today and I havent run in OVER A WEEK. This evening the kids and I are going to the park/track at Alex's school. I have done so good about getting in shape.. and I know I dont have too far to go to be where I want to be. I want to be in tip top shape when Jason gets back!! :-)

Jason.. I love you baby!!!!!

Kiss..Kiss.
hehe I miss you and can't wait to see you. :-)

ok.. well I gotta go get the kids from school..

Ya'll have a blessed day!
Love ya,
((hugs)) Deanne

Let it go for 2006 ....By T.D. Jakes

2006-03-28T13:04:00.000-06:00

Did someone need to hear this today? My friend Monica sent it out in an email and I thought I should share it. Love ya ((hugs)) ~*D*~

Let it go for 2006 ....By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not forus. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat, I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life,then you need to...... Let it go!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ...... Let them go!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth..... Let them go!!

If someone has angered you ........ Let it go!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...... Let them go!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...... Let it go!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents..... Let it go!!

If you have a bad attitude....... Let it go!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...... Let it go!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...... Let it go!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....... Let it go!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves....... Let them go!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ......... Let it go!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to...... Let it go!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2006 !!!
Let it go!! The Battle is the Lord's!

Wow!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-27T16:43:00.000-06:00

Ok, someone has to tell me.. where did all these sweet people came from who have left these comments? I have had more comments today than I have had the whole time I have been blogging (exaggerating a little, but I have had lots of comments today). You all seem like Godly women and your prayers and kind words really mean a lot to me.

Well.. I haven’t updated in a over a week. so here it goes.....

Things seem to be going great. The kids were out of school last week and that was stressful having them home and trying to work (medical transcription) too. I love them so much....but hehe it was a relief to see them get back to school today.

Jason has been told about an AGR job that is he really interested in. If he gets this job we will be moving about an hour and a half/two hours from where we are now. I will miss my friends and family here, but its not too far.. and it is a great opportunity for our family. I think this would really be the best thing for us... (for MANY reason)... so if you would keep this job opportunity in your prayers it would really mean a lot to me.

Jason has had some problems with a torn meniscus and is going to see another orthopedic doctor Wednesday. Please keep this in your prayers too. Hopefully they will not need to do surgery, but if its needed then they must do it. The only thing his knee is interfering with is him getting to do BNOC while he is over in Germany. Going through BNOC would be a great opportunity for him and allow him to be promoted in the near future. They said today that he might still get to go to BNOC even with an injured knee (of course that is if he doesnt have to have surgery during the time frame of BNOC). If he goes to BNOC it will be from April 9 - 24 (not sure of the dates). During that time we would only be able to communicate by phone (some) and not have Web cam.

Jason should be coming home anywhere between mid May to the beginning of June. We dont know an exact date.

Oh and my mom got discharged from the hospital Sunday afternoon. She spent two weeks in the hospital with pneumonia. She is doing much better, but still feels weak. Thank you for your prayers.

I do have ONE more prayer request. We had a family friend lose her battle with breast cancer this past weekend. She has gone on to be with the Lord. She was such a very special lady and a blessing to know. Her name is Linda Scott. Please keep her family in your prayers. She left behind a husband, three kids (my age) and 5 grandchildren. Thank you.

Well... I have things I need to go and do. Thank you again all so much.. and please someone tell me where all you nice ladies came from!!!

Love ya,
((hugs))
Deanne

It's all good

2006-03-21T12:07:00.000-06:00

"Adversity is like rain. It is required for growth. Without it you will never put down strong roots and flourish. On the other hand too much rain can turn into a flood!!!!!!!!!!!"

Well yesterday it was flooding!!! But today is a little better; It will all be ok. Yesterday just started out a little crazy, then turned into this really EMOTIONAL day. I get so emotional and confused...but its all good.

Weather wise, it really is a beautiful day. I am busy working, but the kids have been outside playing (it is Spring Break here). Yesterday was a yucky rainy day (in more ways than one), so I am glad to see a little sunshine today.

Love ya'll... Thank you for your continued prayers!

horrible day!!!!!

2006-03-20T17:13:00.000-06:00

Today has turned into a horrible day.. horrible!!!! oh. I am just so stressed out. I dont want to talk about it.. I just want to scream, I just want to cry.......... Why does my life have to be so complicated???? :-(

Happy Birthday Jason!!!!!!

2006-03-18T14:18:00.000-06:00

Happy Birthday to my hubby... Today is Jason's 33rd B'Day. I wish he was here.... it is yet another special day we are having to spend apart (HIS special day). He was gone last year on his birthday too. They were in Ft. Leonard Wood about to head to Germany. The year before that he was in the hospital on his birthday (when he had the Traumatic Brain Injury from a tree accident). I will be glad when we can actually celebrate his birthday together!!

With Jason being 7 hours ahead me... I wanted to wish him a happy birthday. So I knew he would be checking his emails this morning.. so last night I sent one so that he would have it when he woke up. Then at 6:45 am this morning, I called to wish him a happy birthday (of course it was already 1:45 in the afternoon there). Then I went and got taxes done (haha fun).... then when I got home I got on web cam and spent about two hours on there with him (since today was his off day).

This is the weekend that the girls go to their dads (oh I guess some of you dont know.. their dad moved from Indiana back to Alabama.. so they are getting to see him every other weekend now). Erin didnt want to go this weekend..but Alex did. I know it is a big adjustment from going to hardly seeing their dad at all to going over there every other weekend. The kids were so used to being home with me all of the time, with their stuff, their beds, their friends around here. Erin loves her daddy VERY MUCH... but she wanted to stay home this weekend. THEN her friend ends up calling and wants her to spend the night Friday night and go ice skating today.. so that is where Erin is. Ok... Erin just called. Maddison wants her to spend the night another night. I will let her. Maddison is a great kid and has a really nice family. So.. it is just me and Hayden this weekend.

My mom is in the hospital with bronchitis getting oxygen. She has been in there since Monday. She was hospitalized 2 1/2 years ago with pneumonia and put on a respirator. She is NO WHERE close to that bad, but she is having to stay hospitalized, getting medication and oxygen. Please keep her in your prayers.

4:47 PM (UPDATE) - My mom's x-rays are now showing pneumonia. Please keep her in your prayers. Thanks!!!

Well... I hope you all have a blessed day. Keep me in your prayers too, I am dealing with a lot of personal issues right now and I cant really talk about them, but if you would just lift me up I would greatly appreciate it.

Love ya'll!!

Oh how I love my soldier!

2006-03-17T10:22:00.000-06:00

Oh how I love my soldier! I still can't believe that possibly as short as two months he could be home! It seems unreal. We have been apart for so long, and seen each other in person basically twice (two weeks each time).. and now to know in a couple of months he will be home for good!!! WOW!!

Well I am looking forward to his return!!! We have a trip planned to the beach the end of June for a week and I am sooooo looking forward to that! It will be awesome for us to spend family time together. I am really trying hard to get in EXTRA good shape too. I know I am not big or anything, but I want to be tight and tone...hehe. When he was here at Christmas I weighed about 123 lbs. Now I am down to 113!!!! YEAH!!! I have been watching what I eat, exercising, and recently took up running... "exercise, exercise, slim those thighs, slim those thighs"!!

ok.. well I gotta get back to work... Ya'll have a most excellent day!!!
Love ya!

Quotes

2006-03-16T10:31:00.000-06:00

Here are some great quotes that I have loved.. and wanted to share them with you. Enjoy!

"life isn't measured
by the number of breaths we take
but the moments
that take our breath away.."

"Above all,
watch with glittering eyes
the whole world around you
because the greatest secrets
are always hidden
in the most unlikely of places
Those who don't believe in magic
will never find it.."
- Roald Dahl

"People will forget
what you said
people will forget
what you did
but people will never forget
how you made them feel..."

deeper and darker.

2006-03-14T09:01:00.000-06:00

Ok I took out the blonde highlights!!! I wanted it deeper, darker. I really do like it darker! Jason has seen it (pics and web cam) I know he doesnt really like it red.. actually he doesnt because he hated it last time I did this. But I love it!

He said he wants it LONG... so I am growing it out and will one day have those long locks that he loves so much, hehe but they will be long red locks. We gotta meet in the middle. He gets me with the long hair, I get to choose the color. ;-) Rememember when Mommas happy, everyones happy. hehe

Anxious about Jason's return... is this NORMAL?

2006-03-14T08:55:00.000-06:00

Jason has been deployed for the past 13 1/2 months. He has been home twice during his deployment (2 weeks each time). In 2 1/2 more months he will be home. How do I feel about this? Of course I am happy, I want my husband home (I want us to be a family again), but a part of me is very worried, very anxious, very unsettled. It is a scary feeling too. 16 months apart is a very long time... and of course I love my husband dearly... but for those of you who may be military and if you have ever spent a year and a half away from your spouse, learned to become independent in many things...you may understand what I'm talking about.
Here is something I found about POST-DEPLOYMENT that I found very interesting.. PLEASE READ.

Expect an adjustment period no matter how happy you are to be home and how happy your family is to have you back.
Anticipate doubts and worries. Anxiety is a predictable part of reuniting.
Expect change. Recognize that you, your spouse and your children have all changed to some degree. Everything from tastes and interests to the way the household is run may have changed. Make small, gradual changes and ease back into your role in the family. This process can take several weeks or months, depending on how long you and your family were apart and each family member's ability to cope with change and stress.
Be prepared for the reappearance of old problems. Separation does not erase problems, and problems do not solve themselves. Taking a break from the issue and stepping back may have helped you and your spouse to gain a new perspective, but the issue itself may still exist. There may also be new issues to address.
Be realistic in your expectations. Forget your fantasies, and let things happen naturally.
Share your feelings, and accept others' feelings, whatever they may be. Feelings are never right or wrong; they just are. Expect that the deployment has been difficult for everyone, and be prepared for all sorts of feelingsrelief, hope, anxiety and even resentment.
Be prepared for challenges as you try to reestablish physical intimacy with your spouse. Take your time getting reacquainted, and do not try to rush sexual relations to make up for lost time!
Take time to communicate and reconnect with your family and friends. Plan family time to help bring everyone back together. Make time for just you and your spouse. Plan some special time for you and each of your children to get reacquainted.
Be aware that you and your family have changed to some degree. Your family has had to keep goingworking, going to school, maintaining the householdin your absence, and it may take some time for you to blend back into the routine. Keep an open mind as you re-create your role in the family. Commend your family for the good things they have done, and do not try to change routines that are working well.
Avoid a busy schedule, and make some time for yourself to get back into interests or hobbies that you missedthe positive things that bring you joy and help you relax. If you do not have good hobbies, create some.
Recognize that deployment can be very difficult, and do not be afraid to talk to someoneyour spouse, your family, your friends, a chaplainor seek professional help if you are having problems adjusting to being back.
After the initial reunion, discuss the division of chores in the household.
Be patient, and give yourself time to adjust. Recognize that you have been away for quite some time, and do not expect everything to go back to the way it was overnight.
Understand that, even if you did not find the deployment stressful or difficult, it can still have an impact on you and your family in ways that you may not realize.

NEW Pics... Ive colored my hair!!

2006-03-09T23:46:00.000-06:00

Where is the color you say... look below. I went RED.. Well actually it is a darker shade than these pictures show (the flash is making it look a little brighter). Actually, it's multi-colored. Red, brown, dark brown, some blonde highlights. LOL Im lovin' it!

CHEESE!!!

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Everything is ok

2006-03-06T15:52:00.000-06:00

Its been TWO months since I took a break, and well honestly I am still taking a break. I just wanted to post below about Erin and Alex and how proud of them I am.

Everything in my life is pretty much the same as it was the day I did my last post, except that we are now two months closer to Jason coming home. We are looking at some time the end of May, or first week in June. Not sure yet.

Well... I'm still as busy as ever... so I gotta cut this one short.

To all my faithful readers.. I Love ya'll and miss you and Im sorry I havent kept in touch.

PROUD PARENT

2006-03-06T15:50:00.000-06:00

~*ALEX*~

Last month my youngest daughter, Alex received a Good Citizenship Award in her class. She has such good conduct and goes out of her way to help and do for others. I was so proud of her for this accomplishment.Alex is also in RLC - the gifted program at her school. She will be taking a trip to the Dolphin Island Sea Lab in October.

~*ERIN*~

A few weeks ago my oldest daughter, Erin wanted to audition for the ACDA Young Voices Festival. Several students from the middle school choir were going to audition. We drove out to Inverness where different schools were scheduled to audition at different times. Well today Erin received word that she made the cut! I was so happy for her. Now we will go to the ACDA Young Voices Festival at Auburn University in May.

Here is a litte more about the ACDA "The Alabama ACDA Young Voices Festival is a unique opportunity for 4th-9th grade students in the state of Alabama. Young Voices offers choral students a challenging opportunity to perform advanced literature under the direction of nationally recognized music educators. The 14th Annual Young Voices Festival will be held on the Campus of Auburn University on May 5-6, 2006"!Erin will also be participating in the Smoky Mountain Music Festival in Gatlinburg, TN in April.

CONGRATS to my girls.. I am so proud of both of you!!

Just a break ... not goodbye.

2006-01-06T11:03:00.000-06:00

I have decided to take a temporary break from blogging.

I originally started blogging to share my life back home with Jason during his deployment, but since Jason and I talk daily via phone or web cam he doesn't even look at my blog at all. I truly enjoyed blogging and all the wonderful people I have met through my blog. I have enjoyed the fun of creating the blog and changing up the template, as it has helped pass the time and the loneliness I have felt with Jason being gone.

This blog has been a personal journal for me, but because it is not anonymous and many people I know personally read my blog I can't really always say everything I feel (about my life, my marriage, my feelings, etc). So although I admit I do wine and complain and cry some, I don't always share everything I am feeling, just because I don't want everyone to know my personal business. There are people who read my blog who know me personally who also email and call me and that is great, as many of them I do share things with, but there are people I know personally who read my blog and never contact me at all (they have no interest in my life besides my blog and knowing my business). For some reason all of the sudden I feel like I need to be private.... that my life is my life, its private and I don't want to be obligated to share it with the world. I have a lot of feelings and things going on in my life right now that I just don't feel up to sharing... and I don't want to just blog when my heart is not in it. I hope you all understand.

I am not saying I am saying goodbye, but I am taking a break.. I will blog from time to time, but not daily and maybe not even weekly. So check back in from time to time... You can leave comments too as they go straight to my email. Or if you wish you can email me at lifebackhome@bellsouth.net (which goes to my personal email which I check daily) or bloglifebackhome@yahoo.com (which I check about weekly).

His visit home....(WITH PICTURES - below)

2006-01-06T10:48:00.000-06:00

Jason arrived home on Wednesday Dec 21, 2005 for a TWO WEEK visit. His mother picked him up from the airport and the kids and I sat anxiously awaiting him at home. It was a little after 6 pm and he called from his mom's cell phone to let us know they had gotten on the interstate heading this way. Hayden had fallen asleep on the couch, however the girls and I jumped to our feet when we heard the car pull up. He walked in the door and was greeted with hugs and kisses. It felt so good to be in his arms holding him close. After a brief reuniting with me and the girls, he walks over to the couch where Hayden was sleeping. He sits down beside him and starts to talk to Hayden. Hayden opens his eyes and smiles big at his daddy, but looks at him and starts to rub his eyes.. he looks again and then again rubs his eyes (as if he wasn't sure if what he was seeing was real or if he was dreaming)... when he realized his daddy was sitting in front of him, he jumps up into Jason's arm and gives him a big hug.

Jason's visit home was great... he is such a family man and loves to spend time with me and the kids. We had a VERY BUSY two weeks. Below I have posted some pictures of many things we did while Jason was here. I will put captions below the photos to explain each one.

Jason has since gone back to Germany to finish out his deployment. He should be home in June 2006.

Zoo Light Saffari

Zoo Light Saffari

Jason and me at my mom's house

My sister Courtney, my brother Johnny, and me (at my mom's house)

Me and my mom

Big Daddy and Hayden

Hayden Christmas

Kids Christmas

Jason cooking breakfast

Jason relaxing with his brother Mike

A night of fireworks - New Years Eve

Fun at Chuckie Cheeses

Alex winning those tickets

Erin and their cousin Tori at Chuckie Cheeses

Macie Bday party at Chuckie Cheeses

Jason and Alex

Let the wrestling begin..hehe

more and more wrestling.. they had such a good time

Jason and Hayden

and as always... time for games. We played Unno, Scrabble, and checkers while he was home.

Today is the day!!!!

2005-12-21T08:17:00.000-06:00

Well Today is the day! Jason's flight will arrive at 5:30. I am soooo excited. His mom is going to pick him up from the airport as she has to drive out that way to pick up his daugter Macie.

The rest of the kids and I will be anxiously awaiting him at home. I told him a few days ago that I couldn't wait to see Hayden's face (our three year old) when he walks in the door. Jason said he wasn't going to walk in the door, he said he was going to run.

So... Today I am still "super cleaning" getting everything super nice for him.

I still can't believe he will be home for TWO weeks. Well, I have lots to do, I will write later.

Email from a classmate

2005-12-19T21:32:00.000-06:00

Today I received an email from a girl I went to highschool with (who graduated a year after me).

Hi Deanne! I'm not sure if you remember me but I was "Laney ******** LEFT OUT FOR PRIVACY VIA DEANNE" (class of 1991). I read your column you write for the local paper and I really enjoy it. You have always been a happy, positive person but I love how much you love the Lord! Thank you being such a great witness!

I graduated 15 years ago and have kept in touch with a few people, but there are many that I have simply lost touch with. Laney mentions in the email that she reads the column I write for our local paper. I have written an article for this paper for the past 3 years (well I write for the Lord, but it is published in the paper). Laney had contacted me through a names database she found on the net. I was able to reply to her through that web page. Of course in the email I give her my personal email so she can contact me. I would love to hear what all she has been doing. It is still hard for me to believe I have been out of school for 15 years. So much has happened (good and bad) since then. Despite the good and bad I have truly been blessed and have grown and matured in life, love, and the Lord!

Quick note....

2005-12-19T13:17:00.000-06:00

Hey everyone... sorry if I don't "blog" often the next couple of days. I have SOOO many things on my list to get done before Jason arrives Wednesday evening. I want everything to be EXTRA special for him.

QUICK note....

The girls have school through Wednesday. They originally were supposed to only go today, but because they were out after Hurricane Katrina, they have make-up days and this Tues/Wed are those days. Erin also has exams today so she HAD to be there today.

Yesterday at church the girls performed "Angels among us". They did an "AWESOME job". They also had a birthday party for Jesus. It was a great party and really enjoyed being there. There was a drawing to give away three turkeys. Well TWO of my kids won! So we will pick up the turkeys Wednesday.

Hayden is getting a NEW bed tomorrow. My in-laws have bought him a really nice twin bed that has the drawers underneath. My mother-in-law will be taking Hayden tomorrow and spending the day with him (they are going to see Santa) and I will be home cleaning, typing, and waiting on the delivery people.

Well... I gotta run, I have LOTS to do!!

UPDATE: 9:25 pm

After picking Erin and Alex up from school we had errands to run. Bank, grocery store, dollar store, Walmart... whew I was glad to get home. Alex was told that if they stayed home from school Tues and Wed that it would NOT count against them. Since they were orginally scheduled to be OUT those two days and they were only added as weather days (because of Katrina) and because so many people have plans to be away, they dont have to go. Alex said half the school was there today. Erin said after 11:00 today half their school check out. So.. I have decided to let them stay home with me. They both said they will help get everything perfect and tiddy for Jason's visit home. They are such sweet girls! I THANK THE LORD DAILY for the beautiful family he has blessed me with!

Yard work and a Christmas Party!

2005-12-17T16:24:00.000-06:00

First of all.. EVERYONE is healthy!!! YEAH!!

Today has been quite a busy day. Erin had company spend the night last night and the kids had a great time. I slept in until 8 am and it felt so good. I have so much that needs to be done... so I started in the yard. I spent HOURS working in the front and back, cleaning up all the leaves with the leaf sucker, mulcher thingy (looks like a lawnmower, but it sucks up all the leaves, mulches them into the bag attached - really neat and so much easier than raking and baging). However everytime I do this it really kicks my rear end because I empty about 10-15 bags. There is a GIANT tree in my back yard and it still has tons of leaves on it (so I am sure I will be busy again in a few days).

Then it was a quick trip to drop Erin's friend (Kim) off at her house, back home to throw in a load of clothes, and everyone get baths and get ready for tonight. Yep, we have plans tonight! We are heading to my grandmother's house in a few minutes for a Family Christmas Party. I am really excited as there are cousins I haven't seen in years who have moved to other states.

We didn't go to the annual Christmas party last year as that was the same night Jason's dad (Norman) wanted us to come to their house. That was our last Christmas with Norman as he died a week before Jason was deployed of a massive heart attack. As great as this Christmas will be with Jason, the kids and I getting to spend it together with him, I know it will be hard on Jason being the first Christmas without his dad.

Well, I gotta get shoes on the kids and get out the door. Have a great evening everyone... Much love!! ((hugs)).

Oh NO not again!!!

2005-12-15T07:00:00.000-06:00

Here is the breakdown of my kids being SICK this month.....

Alex (fever/vomitting) 12/3 &4 and AGAIN 12/13
Hayden (fever/vomitting) 12/6,7,8 and AGAIN last night and this morning 12/14&15
Erin (fever/strep throat) 12/10,11,12,13

So far the 5th and 9th are the only two days someone hasnt been sick.. Keep us in your prayers. It is like the devil is trying to attack us. I want my kids healthy and well.

I received a phone call from Jason last night. Something is wrong with the charger to his lap top. It will not charge at all. He is having problems calling the 1-800 # to Compaq about getting a replacment charger, so I am going to have to call them today. They should replace the charger as it has a year warranty. I will have to have them send it to the house since he will be home in a week (for two weeks). However that means NO web cam for the next week (we will have to rely on me calling him).

Well I have a pretty busy day ahead... so I gotta run, but have a GREAT day everyone (and keep us in your prayers today)!!

A fun filled day.....

2005-12-14T10:45:00.000-06:00

It was really busy this morning at our house as all three kids had plans at school today. Erin (who is feeling better and able to go back to school) was going with her class to see The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (She has read the book so I am anxious to see how she likes the movie). Alex was going with her class to see the Nutcracker. Hayden had a party at school (and all the 3K children were going to perform some Christmas songs as well).

So the time comes for the 3K to perform their songs and we are waiting in the chapel for the children. The children line up all well-behaved and ready to perform, and as soon as several children laid eyes on their parents sitting out in the audience some begin to cry (of course mine being one of them). Us mothers who had crying kids made our way down and sat in the floor up front, with our children who came and sat in our laps. Some children were still up on stage crying, some were singing, some were singing parts of the songs they were not supposed to be singing yet, it was just adorable. They all did a great job, even if they cried through the singing.

Then it was back to their classroom for a CHRISTmas party. This is what they really enjoyed...cupcakes, cookies, and of course PRESENTS! Above is a picture of Hayden and Presley. Her mother (Amy) and I are friends. One of the other mothers told me about a play group that they have at their church for mothers who stay home and their children. She invited us to be a part of the group and I am really exicited about this. She said they meet once a month and she will send me the information for January!

Well it is ONE week until my Hubby is home for his 2 week R&R. This is going to be the BEST CHRISTmas ever!!!!! I couldn't ask for anything more!!

Best Blog Contest

2005-12-13T08:27:00.000-06:00

Click HERE to vote for
"I love my soldier - Life Back Home"

Thank you to all of you who have been voting for me in the "Best Blog Contest". There will be three prizes award. One prize is awarded to the blog in each "category" that gets the most votes. Another prize is awarded for the "Best Designed Blog" and that will be decided by a panel of three judges. Another prize is awarded for the "Best Blog" this is for all blogs entered into the contest, and that is also decided by a panel of three judges.

Well today and tomorrow are the last days to vote in the BEST BLOG CONTEST (you can vote once per day). Click the button above, Vote for the Best Blog, Cast your vote, and scroll on down to the "Best Military Life Blog" and click by "I love my solider - Life Back Home". It would be cool to get the prizes (Amazon Gift Cards). I could order something special for my soldier (who will be home for Christmas).

Thank you to all my faithful blog readers who go and vote for me!! ((hugs to you)).

Another day in the life of me ~my life back home~

2005-12-12T21:55:00.000-06:00

This morning started out busy... I haven't been sleeping well, which in turn has caused me to sleep later in the mornings. I got up with the children, rushing around getting them ready for school (oh how I hate to rush). Alex and Hayden would both be going to school today, but with Erin being up throughout the night with a sore throat and feeling horrible this morning she would be going to the doctor instead. Grabbing a quick cup of coffee I headed out the door to start our day.

Erin's doctors appointment was scheduled at 10:20, so either I was going to have to pick-up Hayden early and take him with us, or I could let him stay late, as there was no way I would be able to be back and pick him up by 11:00 (when 3K ends). I decided since we would be in the pediatrician's office filled with sick children my best bet would be to let Hayden stay for another hour of daycare at school. Well a visit at the doctor diagnosed Erin with STREP throat! So it was off to the pharmacy next to start her on Amoxicillin. Her pediatrician also went up on her dosage of Concerta (for her ADHD). She had been on the same dosage for several years, and with her recent struggles in school we decided it best to up her medication and see how that does.

Then it was back to the daycare to pick-up Hayden and head home to try to get some typing (medical transcription done). My morning had been so busy and I needed to try and get as much typing done during the afternoon. Hayden really seemed to be a handful this afternoon and I was having a hard time working. Erin seemed to be feeling a little better to (but we know how that goes.. when sick we seem to feel better the middle of the day, but oh when night comes it gets worse again). Before I knew it, it was time to pick Alex up from school.

Then back home again trying to get my work done. Erin was starting to feel bad and started taking it easy, and everyone else seemed to get in a calmer mood as well. However then it was time to cook supper, throw in a couple of loads of clothes, get children in the bath and off to bed early to have a good nights sleep. I still haven't gotten my work completed (which upsets me) however I will be up late typing (which is really good because there are NO distractions)

As far as talking to my Sweetie... Jason and I had a great day on the web cam. We talked about all kinds of things and really enjoyed our time chatting. We talked about him coming home and how wonderful it will be to see each other.. I still can't believe in 9 days my Sweetie will be home for TWO weeks! I know I am going on and on about it, but I am just so happy!!

I spoke with my hubby today and I also spoke with my mother-in-law, but it wasn't until later this evening that I realized what today is. DEC 12th. That day has great significance to our family. It was two years ago today that my brother-in-law Rodney died. He died of a drug overdose. Within the past two years I have had two people close to me die from drugs (my brother-in-law Rodney, and a life-long friend Christy). Drugs kill!! I have been honest with my children about drugs and how Rodney and Christy both died. I have told them how drugs will ruin your life and will kill you. Drugs are nothing to be played around with, all it takes is one time of trying something and you can be drawn into a life that you will hate! So to those of you out there who have never tried drugs.. DON'T. To those of you who have and struggle with an addiction - Please seek help, pray to God daily and turn your addiction over to Him. If you know someone who is on drugs, encourage them to seek help, pray for them, don't give into their addiction but do what you can to help them overcome it.

Well, I better get busy typing this work (looks like it will be another long night ahead of me). Just thinking.. I miss the nights when Jason was home and I spent my evenings with him. That was OUR time when the kids had gone to bed. I miss those times. It is evenings that I cry and miss him the most because it is quiet. THAT is just another good reason for me to work late at night. A busy mind doesn't have time to think of the things that break our heart! Before long this deployment will be over and I will once again have my evenings back with my Sweetie again! Life back home is hard without him, but the love we share makes it all worth the wait!

"Momma, my throat hurts"

2005-12-11T11:25:00.000-06:00

Within a week all three of my children have been sick. It was just about two months ago that all three of them were sick (fever, stomach virus), and now they are sick AGAIN. Last weekend Alex started running fever, complaining of a headache and within 5 hours she was sick at her stomach; then two days later Hayden starts running fever, complaining of a headache and the next day he got sick at his stomach. Well two days after that Erin starts running fever and I assumed the same would follow for her, however she cries "Momma, my throat hurts". She sounds congested in her head too. So I have given her medicine and got her some throat spray as well. I hate to see my children sick, I am just thankful that this time and last time they were all sick, it was within days of each other and NOT all at the same time.

I really hope that Erin gets better soon and that this is not strep throat or anything bad. She has a Field-Trip Wednesday to see "The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe". She is really excited about going to the movie with her class (and afterwards they are supposed to stop by the Galleria and each lunch).

With Erin sick today we were unable to make it to church. The girls were supposed to be angels in the Christmas Drama today. There are about 15-20 girls playing angels singing "Angels among us" at the end of the drama. I really hate that they didn't get to participate. We didn't make it to church last Sunday either (as Alex was sick then). Ok Devil, stay away from my kids!! We need to be healthy and we need to be back in church. I really hate missing church. The Sunday before Alex was sick I had nursery (so it really seems like forever since I have been in the sanctuary on a Sunday morning). Hopefully everything will flow smoothly this week and we will be able to make it next weekend!

Well, its almost time for me to get on Web Cam with my Hubby (The BEST part of my day). I hope you all have a WONDERFUL day! ((hugs)).

It's beginning to look a lot like CHRISTmas

2005-12-10T15:30:00.000-06:00

Last night the girls spent the night with their Aunt Kerri. Hayden and I spent time some mommy/son time together watching CHRISTmas shows on ABC Family and we made a batch of CHRISTmas cookies.

This morning we got up and got ready to head to the CHRISTmas parade in our hometown. My (ex)sister-in-law Kerri and my girls met us there, as did my mother-in-law and father-in-law, as well as my brother-in-law, his wife and their kids. The parade was great and the kids got sooo much candy. Several of the floats represented our troops and it really got to me. One float said "I'll be home for Christmas" and I just teared up thinking that in 11 days my Sweetie will be home. Oh how I wish it was for good, but even if it is for TWO weeks it is TWO weeks we will get to spend together.

My friend Amy and her two kids Tyler and Presley (Presley is also in Hayden's class) came over after the CHRISTmas parade and we exchanged gifts. The kids really enjoyed getting together and opening gifts, however Erin told me she didn't feel well. I felt her head and YES you guessed it...she was running a fever!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH NO!!!! I gave Erin some medicine and she went to lay down in her bed. I am hoping the vomiting doesn't come next (although it did with Alex and Hayden).

Then our cat "Cuddles" decided to climb the CHRISTmas tree! uhhhh. She has never done this before. Well the tree almost fell, got dislodged from the base, and it was just a mess. Amy and I tried to straighten the tree up, but it was just to heavy. I leaned the tree over against the wall (for now). We enjoyed a little more time with our company and once they left I started taking down ornaments and lights so I could take apart the tree and put it back up (lights, ornaments and all). THAT is what I am in the middle of doing right now, however I took a little break to come blog for a bit.

AND I also got to speak to Jason for just a little while today on the web cam. His cam kept locking up so all I could see was a still picture, but at least I could hear his voice. I am so excited about getting to see him in 11 days, yet again I am nervous. I will not want him to return back to Germany, but I know that has to happen (but only until June/2006 - then he comes home for good). I love that man so much!!!!!!

"It's beginning to look a lot like CHRISTmas, every where we go". With all the lights up on the houses and decorations out in the yards, the CHRISTmas music playing on the radio, greeting cards coming in the mail, cookies baking, CHRISTmas parades, CHRISTmas dramas, spending time with friends and family, and YES presents!! Oh how I just love CHRISTmas. Most importantly let us not forget the real reason for the season, the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! Share the love that Jesus brought into this world by spending time with family and friends, giving from your hearts, and loving as Christ loved this CHRISTmas season and throughout the new year.

Well I gotta go check on Erin and finish putting my tree back up!
((Hugs))

what a day, what a day

2005-12-08T10:49:00.000-06:00

Well last night, Hayden ended up getting "sick" at his stomach (to go along with the fever he has been running). I was hoping that it would not happen, but knowing the course the virus took with Alex I was expecting it too. He only got sick a few times, ran a fever again, but slept pretty good through the night. He is doing GREAT today. No fever, no vomiting. You would not believe this is the same child who was so sick for two days. I am glad that it is over.. and now just praying that Erin or I don't get it. (I admit I was feeling kind of yucky myself yesterday, but I feel ok today).

I have lots of work to do today (this work will go on my January pay checks). I am still concerned (stressing) over how I am going to financially manage some things I need to take care of by the end of this week, and before Jason gets home on the 21st, but I am putting my faith in the Lord to work it out.

I have also been stressed over the annoyance of bills I have been getting from Jason's Hospital visit in 03/2004. As many of you know Jason was in an accident and suffered a traumatic brain injury and underwent surgery and spent a month in the NICU. We almost lost him!! Tricare was supposed to pay for everything (as he was on Active duty when the accident happened), and there was a mix-up with the hospital and they are just now billing Tricare for some of the charges. Tricare got all mixed up and started denying claims! Anyway I had to contact his Commander at the time of the accident and he got in touch with the State Military Department and they are working it all out. I just keep getting bills and phone calls for thousands and thousands of dollars.. so I am trying to make sure it is all taken care of. They have apologized and say they are working on it, but with the stress I have on me with Jason being gone, having to take care of everything I am having to do at home right now, my bills that I need to get caught up, buying groceries for Christmas etc.. this is the LAST thing I need.

Oh and yesterday this lady almost hit us in our car. We were running late to school and I was on my way to drop Alex off. Well I stopped at a three way (right by the school) and had made a complete stop, I pressed my gas to go and a lady came FLYING down the main strip, ran her stop sign and almost hit my car. I honked my horn at her. I went and dropped Alex off, and then I saw where the lady went. She too was taking her child to school. She had pulled down near the gym and I pulled in behind her. I was furious! I probably should have calmed down first, but I didn't. I rolled down my window and started screaming at her. I told her that if I had pressed my gas pedal a few seconds sooner she would have ran right into the side of my car and possibly killed my child (Alex had been sitting on that side). She starts apologizing. ."Maam I'm so sorry" over and over. I told her that obviously both of us were running late, but that it gave her no excuse to drive so fast and run a stop sign, because getting her kid to school on time wouldn't have mattered very much if she had killed mine in the process! Again she kept apologizing. I just backed up and drove off. Ok, maybe I could have handled it better (In a more Christian way - with love) but I was so mad.

Ok., well I gotta get back to work. And enough complaining out of me (like I said I blog on the "good days and the bad" - but I know you all get tired of me having so many BAD times and complaining.. I apologize). I am grateful for my family.. and the fact that my Sweetie will be here for Christmas!!!!

Have a GREAT day everyone!! Love ya. ((hugs)).

Another child sick...

2005-12-07T09:07:00.000-06:00

Yes, once again another one of my children is sick. ohhh! Last night I heard Hayden crying, I went into his room and asked him what was wrong. He began to cry and say "I miss my daddy" (this is something that happens frequently during the night). However this time as I went to hug and comfort him he was burning up with fever. I picked up his weak little body and carried him to my room. I got him some medicine, something cold to drink and a cool rag. As he laid in my bed and fell back asleep, I prayed over him that his fever would drop quickly and that he would not get the vomiting part of the virus that Alex had just a few nights before (if this was the same virus). His fever did break quickly and he never did get "sick". This morning he ran a low fever and I again gave him some medicine to break his fever. He is laying down now resting and watching TV.

I called the church to find out what time the girls had practice for the Christmas Drama and to confirm what they are supposed to wear. As I told Rhonda (The administrator) about Hayden being sick, she told me that a virus was going around. I had to call Karen (the music pastor's wife) at work to find out what the girls had to wear. When I talked to her she told me her oldest daughter was sick with the stomach virus too. I pray for all these children that are sick and that they recover quickly. I pray for the family and friends that are around our children that we not catch this yucky virus!!! I can't get sick, I just can't. With Jason gone, I just don't know how I could handle taking care of children if I was sick. Once again I REFUSE to get sick!! (sounds like I just said this the other day.. and again about a month and a half ago when all my kids were sick). I also REFUSE for Erin to get sick! Erin does not need to catch this virus. I pray a hedge of protection around her.

Tonight the girls have practice for the Christmas Drama. With Hayden sick I will have to just drop the girls off and go back and pick them up. They will have a dress rehearsal tomorrow night as well.

Well, the countdown is getting closer until Jason gets home. He will be here in 14 days (Dec 21st). I am so looking forward to getting to spend TWO whole weeks with him. This will be the best Christmas ever!!! However a part of me is a little nervous.. Oh my, I haven't seen him in 7 months (well except for web cam) and just the thought of getting to hold him again brings me to tears! I love him so much! I am going to enjoy every second of the TWO weeks that he will be home, because after that it will be 5 months before we hold each other again.

Alex and RLC

2005-12-06T16:42:00.000-06:00

Yesterday I had a meeting with one of Alex's teachers. Well Alex is in RLC (The gifted program). Her teacher was going over her test with me and was talking about how intelligent she was. Alex is in the 4th grade this year, but he was already talking to me about when she gets in High School. He said instead of her going to regular highschool and taking honors classes he thinks she should go to the Jefferson County International Baccalaureate School (on the Shades Valley Campus). It was ranked the top school in the US!! http://www.jefcoed.com/newsweek.htm. For now she will continue in the gifted program at the elementary school, and then take advance classes in middle school, and hopefully she will be accepted into the JCIB school when she gets in 9th grade. I'm a very proud mother!!!!

What a Saturday...

2005-12-03T20:36:00.000-06:00

Last night the kids and I went over to Momma Glad's house (Her real name is Nancy and she is like my second mom whom I've known almost all my life) to see her Christmas Decorations. My mother was over there also. It was nice to sit and talk, and the kids and I really enjoyed being over there. However, Alex (my youngest daughter who is 9) started complaining of feeling bad. My mother felt her and she felt hot. The kids and I left and went home and I gave Alex some Tylenol and put her to bed. During the night I went in and checked on her and she was burning up with fever. I gave her some Tylenol and got a cool rag to cool her down. Then about 3 am she woke up vomiting. I felt so sorry for her (It was just about a month or two ago that all three of my kids had the stomach virus). She spent the majority of today sleeping. She woke up a few times and got sick and complained of her head hurting. At one point she started to feel a little better and tried to get up, but when she did she said she felt like a bobble head doll and her head felt really heavy and she felt woozy. She spend the evening laying around, but as night grew closer she started to feel worse again. She went to bed about 8 pm.

Of course since Alex is sick, we will not be going to church tomorrow. Even if she is feeling a little better in the morning she will need to rest as she has school Monday morning. I just pray that this virus passes quickly and she starts to feel better.

As you can imagine with Alex sick, my day didn't go as planned (getting the yard cleaned), but I did get several things done around the house. As of last week I already had my tree up and decorated and had most of my Christmas decorations out. Tonight I set up my Christmas Village and it looks so pretty. Tomorrow I am going to hang lights out on the deck and put some decorations out in the yard too.

Jason and I talked twice (once via web cam and once on the phone). We talked this morning via web cam right before he went to work (which was evening for him). He starts a new shift the next three days and we will not have much time to talk, however I am grateful that we do get to talk. Jason did call me this evening. However I did frighten him when he called. He had tried to call several times and I didn't hear the phone (the cordless was in the bedroom and the phone that was in the living room got unplugged from me moving things around for Christmas). Finally I heard the phone ring and answered it and he was worried. He thought Alex had gotten worse and we had gone to the hospital, but I assured him everything was fine. I immediately went and plugged the phone up in the living room.

I still can't believe that in 18 days Jason's flight will come in and we will get to spend TWO weeks with him. I love and miss him so much!!! It has been so long since we have seen him. I want his visit home to be the best!! However, I admit I am a little stressed as I have some things I need to get paid and caught up before he gets home and I'm not sure how I am going to do it. But I know the Lord will work everything out. I am just rejoicing knowing that we will get to spend Christmas together. This will be the best Christmas ever!! The kids and I are soooo excited about seeing him.

Well I need to go and check on Alex and get to bed soon myself. I hope you all have a blessed evening! I will blog again tomorrow. ((hugs)).

Roadside Bomb Kills 10 Marines in Iraq

2005-12-02T13:00:00.000-06:00

As much as I love my husband and miss his presence in my and the kid's daily lives, I am grateful that his act of service has required him to stay in Germany. Although I share in the loneliness that many military spouses feel, I don't know the fear that many of them have (whose spouses are deployed in Iraq and Afghanistan). Today I read on Yahoo News about a roadside bomb that killed 10 marines. Today as I rejoiced in counting down the days until my husband gets to come home and visit for Christmas, there are families who will be notified of the worst news they could ever imagine. I lift up the family and friends of these soldiers in my prayers. I Pray God gives them strength and peace in the moments to come.

TGIF!!

2005-12-02T09:36:00.000-06:00

Yes its finally Friday. Actually this week really flew by for me. I was really busy working and busy with the kids, as we always have so much going on. Of course my weekend will be busy too (with chores around the house and yard) but I am still looking forward to the weekend. Tomorrow I will be working out in the yard, cleaning up the leaves in the back (ahhh all those leaves). However I must say when the yard looks nice, when the house looks nice it makes me so happy. I have such an obession about wanting my house to be clean and everything in order. I really do believe I have an obsessive/complusive disorder. It does bring me joy to see everything nice, but when things are out of place or messy it bothers me so bad. I wish it didn't bother me so bad. Even if no one stopped by to see me I want my house CLEAN and in order. Of course as soon as it is one of "those" days that it gets all messy, is when someone will drop by. That makes me feel bad when someone sees my house messy (or atleast what I consider messy). Like I said, I wish I didnt feel that way and wish I didnt have the complusive desire to always have everything so neat.

I have been going and getting a little shopping done. However, we have done 99% of our shopping on line this year. Even though we are paying shipping charges, I don't have to fight the lines in the mall, drive all over town looking for something, and also try to squeeze my shopping in during the hours that Hayden would be at 3K. I am not missing work by doing all that shopping either. BUT shopping on-line it is not the same and not as fun, so I am getting out and doing a little. The kids and I are going after school to pick up a few little things for Erin's friend.

Hayden had some pictures made at school and they are SOOOO cute! I will get them Monday after I pick him up and will post one on my blog. I can't wait to show it to you, he is such an adorable, beautiful, handsome little boy (I am a proud mommy)!!

The countdown is getting closer.. Just 19 days until Jason is home (for a 2 week R&R). I am getting so excited. Like I have said before Jason has missed so much this past year (birthdays, holidays, just seeing the kids grow) and to be able to have Christmas together is an answered prayer. This will be the best Christmas ever!!

Outstanding site of the month!

2005-12-01T00:10:00.000-06:00

Cut and pasted from my Guestbook.

Hi Deanne- Just wanted to say hi and let you
know I featured you as "Site of the Month" at
KML.
All my best to you and Jason and your family.
My prayers are with all of you.
God protect our troops,
Kathy

http://www.geocities.com/kathysmilitarylinks/index.html

A Season of Giving

2005-11-29T22:46:00.000-06:00

With Thanksgiving recently past and Christmas upon us, I want to take this time to wish you all a holiday season filled with peace, joy and love.

That very first Christmas God gave the world His most valuable gift. He gave us His Son Jesus Christ. Jesus Himself knew how special giving was, as He gave the ultimate gift when He gave His life for our sins. It all started that first Christmas with a precious baby (a precious gift). Christmas is truly a time of caring, sharing, and giving. God gave to us, and it is such a blessing that we can give to others.

The Spirit of Christmas is upon us, and my daughters and I have decided to bless a family with gifts this Christmas. Just knowing the joy that will be shared, the happiness they will experience, the caring and love we feel to be able to do this for this family is all a blessing from God.

May we all be able to give in the Spirit of “Jesus Christ”. May you know and experience the joy of giving during the most joyous time of year.

Thank you to my daughter Erin for your inspiration in my life and your love for this family.

Preparing for Christmas

2005-11-28T08:15:00.000-06:00

Today, well actually the next three days, will be extremely busy for me (providing there is work available for me to do - which there should be). As many of you know I work from home doing medical transcription. The way we get paid is the current months completed work (transcription) is paid out on the 10th and 25th of the following month. So whatever work I get completed by Midnight on the 1st goes toward my paycheck on Dec 10th and Dec 25th.

Jason is a GREAT father, husband and provider. He is making sure the kids have a wonderful Christmas, and he always makes sure I have a great Christmas too. This year I want him to have a very special Christmas. I know it will be special enough just because he will actually be HOME for two weeks (then its back to Germany), but I want to give him a special gift to (to show him how much I love and appreciate him). So I have three days left of hard work to make as much money as I can. Although I have some of my bills I have to get caught up FIRST... I am just trusting the Lord to provide enough work for me that everything will work out.

WOW.. Can you believe it.. Christmas will be here before we know it!! Jason will be here in 24 days. Well I better go get busy with this transcription!

Have a GREAT day everyone.

Kids doodling with Jason

2005-11-26T09:01:00.000-06:00

I wanted to share these photos with you. They are of Jason and the kids "doodling" on Instant Messager and Web Cam. Jason is such a family man and loves to spend time with the kids (playing games, etc), so for now this is how they play from afar.The kids and I really miss spending time with him.

Alex and Jason doodling a Christmas Tree

Alex and Jason doodling a Snowman

Erin and Jason doodling a Reindeer

Snowing in Germany

2005-11-25T19:49:00.000-06:00

Jason called me last night (8 pm for me - 3 am today for him) and was telling me about all the snow that had fallen (being from Alabama we just don't get snow like that). He was getting up and getting ready to go on his shift, but was going to have to go out and clean all the snow off of their van so they could make it to the station. He emailed me a few times from work, but we were not able to get on web cam today. His shift is 12 hours, but they always have to be there an hour early (hmmm sounds like 13 hours to me) and often end up working past their shift (as they did today 14hrs - which is why we didnt get to talk via web cam). Since he had to work over, he was exhausted when he finally got in and had to get some sleep as he would have to be back up bright and early. Speaking of it is almost 8 pm Friday night here, which means it is almost 3 am Saturday morning for him (time to wake up Jason). I sent him an email to tell him good morning. He had a bad day today (well yesterday for him) and even lost his cell phone. I sent him a message to tell him how much I love him and that I hope today goes better!! He is the love of my life and I miss him so much!

Happy Thanksgiving!

2005-11-24T00:14:00.000-06:00

I wanted to jot a quick note to go ahead and wish you all a Blessed and Happy Thanksgiving. I will update later on the events of our day! ((Hugs)) to you all!!

(update)
Hey everyone, We had a great Thanksgiving. I got to talk to Jason before we headed over to my moms. He did get a Thanksgiving meal prepared there at the base, however it just wasn't the same being away from home. I love and miss him soooo much. We talked about how before we knew it he would be home for Christmas (for two weeks).

The kids and I went over to my moms. Mother cooked a big dish of Chicken and Dressing (and giblet gravy), Greens, Green Beans, Potato Salad, Cole Slaw, and Rolls and had Cranberry Sauce. I made Sweet Potato casserole and macaroni and Cheese. My brother and his wife brought deserts! yumm yumm. It was all so good! We had a great time and it was so nice to get together.

I have so many things to be thankful for, my relationship with God, my family and friends, and my health. Thank you God for all you are and all you do.

The kids are home

2005-11-23T10:10:00.000-06:00

Today the kids are out of school (being the day before Thanksgiving). However, just because the kids are home doesn't mean momma (Me) doesn't have to work. Doing medical transcription from home is a HARD job, especially when you have a house full of distraction, but the job has to get done (today reminds me of the summer when they are all home). I did stay up late last night and will probably stay up late tonight, as trying to work when all the kids are home isn't turning out like I originally planned. To add to my 3-year-old, 9-year-old, and 11-year-old being home, Kayla down the street (who is also 9) has come over to play. I could send them outside, but the weather is too cold (well at least I think it is) and if I let the older kids go out, then I would have to let them take Hayden out (which means they would have to stay in the back yard) and I think it is too cold for him right now. So I told the girls if they would stay in the house and play with Hayden and let me get some of my work done, then we could all go outside in a little bit when it warms up some (where I would be able to watch Hayden). THAT is the plan.

Today Jason has a day off. He is planning on going to a neighboring city/base (Actually about 2 1/2 hours away) to see one of his friends (Jeff) who is in the same unit as him. Jeff and Jason have not seen each other since March when they left Ft. Leonardwood and went to Germany. The unit got split into three platoons and went to three different bases (since then they have added more bases to be covered and they have been divided out to those as well - as Jason got moved again this past summer). Jeff is Jason's best friend and I am so glad that Jason is getting to go see him. Jason has been having a really hard time there being away from us and he misses us so much. I know seeing Jeff will be good for him.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am really looking forward to getting together at my mom and dads with my sister, my brother and his wife. I have so much to be thankful for! I do hate that it is another holiday that will come and go and my Hubby will not be here with us, but I am anxiously awaiting Christmas because Jason will be here for two weeks!!

Well, I gotta go get this transcription done. Everyone have a GREAT day!!!

ONE month..Until I see my Sweetie!

2005-11-21T10:36:00.000-06:00

Yes, in just one month (one month from today) my hubby will be home for TWO weeks! I am so excited, the kids are so excited, his mom and everyone just can't wait to see him. This Christmas will be so special!

Jason has gone to 12 hour shifts (MP) and that is good and bad. It's good because he will finally get more time off. Before he was working so much and maybe getting only 5 days off a month. Hopefully this new schedule will work out to where he will have some days off. I must say though, they change the scheduled ALL of the time, he has been on different shifts, etc.. so the schedule is subject to change. The bad side is there may be days we don't get to talk (or talk very little). However I am grateful for anytime we get to talk.

I do know there are soldier/families who are not as fortunate as we are. I know there are families who don't have the luxury of web cams, or only hear from their soldier periodically. Sometimes I even hate to gloat and talk about how much I get to talk to Jason because some of those soldiers wives/families that read my blog don't have the same luxury. Sometimes I even feel bad about talking about how much I miss my husband because honestly some people have told me I should be thankful that he is not over in Iraq and is only in Germany. But I just have to say... I am thankful. I know there are thousands and thousands of families that have solders in WAR zone where they fear for their safety (I feel for them and I pray for them daily). But I also know there are millions of husband and wives snuggled up in their homes together, daddys and kids playing together... and well my kids and I don't have that same luxury. For 18 months the love of my life is not with me! That hurts and therefore I write all about it in this blog (as well as the love I feel for him, and the daily lives of me and the children). I hope I don't offend anyone and if I do I am deeply sorry.

I also know my blog has helped others and is an encouragement for many wives (whether their husband be in Germany or Iraq or Afghanistan), as I have had so many tell me that via comments, emails, and the guestbook. Blogging is great... It is therapeutic for me! Blogging is kind of like REALITY TV. Seriously, don't we all just love reality TV. We peak into the lives of other people. I know I love to read other people's blogs as well. I have MANY that I visit. The key word is REALITY. Its all real!! These blogs express real people, going through real circumstances. I love it! I love that I have made friends through my blog, and other blogs. I love that I can say.. "Hey, pray for me today" and hundreds of prayers will go up for me! So to all of those who frequently read my blog.. I thank you!

Ok... Well Jason and I talked for just a few minutes (morning for me, it was afternoon for him and he was about to go on a new shift). We kind of got into a little spat/disagreement, but we handled it pretty well. I think everything will be ok. It is just really hard to handle how you have disagreement when you are thousands and thousands of miles apart. I have just prayed over the situation every since we got off the Web Cam. I know it will all be ok.

I have been really busy working (Medical Transcription) this morning, but took a break to blog. I have to leave in a few minutes to go get Hayden from 3K. He should lay down for a nap when he gets home (hopefully) so I can get BUSY again working.

Have a GREAT day everyone... ((HUGS)) to you all!

updating blog template

2005-11-19T20:32:00.000-06:00

Hey everyone ... For those of you who frequently view/read my blog, I'm sure you have noticed the drastic changes to the template.

I have really learned a lot about HTML codes since starting this blog back in March. I wanted the template to reflect our family more, therefore I put a family pic in the background. I also changed the picture of me and Jason up top too. I started the update around 8 ish pm and JUST NOW got through 2:51 am (Sunday). Ahh I am going to be TIRED in the morning.

Memories...Precious memories.

2005-11-18T10:48:00.000-06:00

I sit here and think of all the feelings that I have felt since Jason first left on January 31, 2005. I think of all the things that he has missed, and all that we have missed about him. He has been gone 9 months, 2 weeks, and 4 days! It is hard living here without him, to go about my daily life without his presence in our home, to comfort children who cry and miss him. I am grateful that he is not in a combat area and I know things could be worse, but I miss my husband. He has missed so much, birthdays, holidays...but I am beyond words at the happiness I feel knowing he will be home to visit for Christmas.

Yes in just 1 month and 3 days my Sweetie will be home for 2 weeks. Saying goodbye again will be hard, but that is not what I want to even think about right now. His deployment should end the end of May and he should be home sometime in June 2006. That is over 6 1/2 more months, but we are already more than half way through this deployment...so to me the countDOWN has begun!

As you may have read, we have our web cams back up and that has really made things a little easier for us. As I talk to him via web cam and look at his face, I just want to reach out and hold him, but he is so far away. I blow him kisses when we get off the web cam and we always tell each other how much we love and miss each other. To think in a month I can finally hold him and kiss him...and tell him face to face how much I love him....I will NOT want to let go of him the whole time he is here!

Christmas is our favorite holiday and to know we will get to spend it together again brings feelings that I just can't put into words. Jason is such a FAMILY man, a man that came into my life when I had two children from my first marriage, who loved me and loved and accepted my girls (Erin and Alex) as his own daughter (Macie). Together we had Hayden our son... now we are a family complete.

A little info on my Sweetie... He loves to hunt (deer) and always enjoyed hunting with his father (who passed away a week before Jason's deployment). Jason has had a hard time with the loss of his father. I don't believe he has been able to grieve his father the way he would had he been home. I fear that it will hit him hard when his deployment ends and he is back home. When hunting season rolls around and he doesn't have his father to hunt with..will be hard. Jason does love to hunt and has taken the girls on numerous occasions (We have some awesome video of him and the girls). Memories, precious memories. He has taken me hunting as well, and I killed my first deer a few years ago (it was very exciting). When the time comes he will be taking Hayden as well.

Jason, the kids and I love to go camping. We took a big step and financed a really nice travel trailer. It is a great investment. We did get to go camping twice before he was deployed. The memories we have made, and will continue to make are precious. Fishing, hiking, bike riding, and just sitting by the camp fire roasting marshmallows, it is just so much fun and I can't wait until we get to go again.

Jason, the kids and I also love to play games. Scrabble was our game of choice when he left. We also love to play Uno. Jason loves to sit and watch movies together too. He is such a family man.

I am honored to call Jason my husband, my very best friend, an awesome father to our children, and my soldier.

Jason... I (we) love and miss you so much!!!!! Life Back Home is just not the same without you here!

Best Blog Contest.com

2005-11-17T11:39:00.000-06:00

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Vote for the Best Blogs (Cast Your Vote)
My blog "I love my Soldier - Life Back Home" is under "Best Military Life Blog"
The contest ends Dec 14th. I am already way ahead in the category I am in, however I would love to have the most votes for the whole contest!!
Thanks sooo much!

Big Hug!

2005-11-16T07:15:00.000-06:00

Today WILL BE a better day!

((hugs)) to everyone!!

I am starting today with a smile on my face, a hug to my children, and lots of love to give. If a situation appears that may begin to stress me, I will take a deep breath and stop right then and pray over the situation. There is nothing that can happen today that the Lord and I can't get through together.

These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full. John 15:11

Stressing AGAIN!!!

2005-11-15T19:21:00.000-06:00

I'm soooo stressed out!!!!!!!!!!!! It's gotta get better! Lord give me strength to make it through these hard times, to deal with the issues of work, finances, children, homework, loneliness, fear, and my daily life that just doesnt seem to be going any way it is supposed to! Help me Lord to handle these things, to juggle everything I have to juggle and find some kind of balance. Give me peace. I need a little ME time too (I hope that is not too selfish to ask)..but I worry about and care for and do for everyone else and I just need a little time for me (somehow in the mist of getting everything done I need to do). whew! :-(

The dentist...

2005-11-15T13:00:00.000-06:00

Seems like I post alot about the dentist doesnt it? Erin has had a lot of dental work done this year, and Hayden had to go and have some done this morning. We had to get there at 9:00 am and they had to do the oral sedation. It didnt take long for him to be out. He did great through the procedure. They told me he would be sleepy most of the day and to keep an eye on him. He is snoozing right now.

I called Jason a little while ago to see if he went to the doctor this moring. He said he didnt. Hopefully he will go tomorrow on his day off. However, he is saying his head is not hurting today at all. He also mentioned his blood pressure has been up. Just please continue to keep him in your prayers. I worry so much about him.

Well... I have been busy with work, and have had a pretty stressfull week, so I gotta go get this typing (Medical Transcription) done...until it time to go get the girls and get on web cam with my sweetie.

Jason

2005-11-14T17:04:00.000-06:00

I am really worried about Jason. He has mentioned that he feels like his head is bigger in the area of the injury/TBI (where the tree struck his head and where he had surgery 04/2004), he has told me of painful tenderness at the temple area, he has told me of headaches (one so bad he felt sick at his stomach) and now he has mentioned a pain in his head that feels like someone sticking a knife in his head (comes and goes). I have begged him to go to the doctor. He said he might go in the morning (before he works tomorrow night), and/or may go Wed when he is off. I pray that he goes and gets this checked out. I am so worried about him.

Church - Bull riding

2005-11-13T16:53:00.000-06:00

Today after church we had a luncheon. The kids, my dad and my sister and I sat and ate lunch together. They had a men's bakeoff contest where the men had baked cakes and pies. They received prizes and then the pies/cakes were auctioned off as a fund raiser for the new church. They were going anywhere from $40 - $500. It was an great way to raise money.

Also there was a mechanical bull. The adults/youth paid $5 each to ride (again to raise money for the new church), however the children were allowed to ride free. Mainly children rode. Erin rode 6 times, Alex rode just once. Even little Hayden rode (along with an older child) and of course the guy that was controlling it went REALLY slow with Hayden - and the other kids too. Several adults rode as well. Our Music Pastor and our Associate Pastor both rode, but money was raise to get them on. Again the day was a great fundraiser for the new church, and a great day of fellowship. Of course I didn't get to fellowship much because as soon a Hayden rode (the bull) he crawled up in my lap and went to sleep (while I was trying to eat). So I just fellowshiped with those around me. Erin and Alex wanted to go back to Big Daddy's house (my dad). So after I got home, talked to Jason on the computer, I went to my mom and dads and picked them up.

Sunday night the kids and I decided to rent a movie. We watched The Adventures of Shark Boy and Lava Girl. Alex said it was ok, but Erin and Hayden loved it. Hayden kept calling himself shark boy.

Fun in the leaves....

2005-11-12T20:47:00.000-06:00

Today was a beautiful fall day and the kids and I spent the majority of the day outside. Wow...there were soooo many leaves in the back yard. The kids played in the leaves and had the best time. Lots of leaves means lots of work for me. I need to call my brother-in-law Mike and get him to bring over the leaf vacum lawnmower thingy that him and Jason bought together. I have so much work to do in the yard. I will probably wait untill next weekend to get it done, and give the leaves another week to fall (so I can get more done at once).

Veterans Day 2005

2005-11-11T07:20:00.000-06:00

Veterans, I thank you for your service, your honor, your sacrifice. You give unselfishly for our nation's freedom and for that we are truly grateful!

God Bless America, our veterans, our troops . . . We are a better nation because of you!

Getting in shape...

2005-11-10T21:36:00.000-06:00

Ok, it is time for me to get serious about getting in shape!! I have a few pounds I want to lose and some muscle I want to tone up. I have a month, one week and four days before my Sweetie is home for a 2 week R&R. I want to look really good for him. So starting in the morning I will be working out EVERY morning! I have got to be strict with myself!

Also I want to let my hair grow back out. I have really loved my short hair (as in my profile pic), and thought it complemented my face, but I know Jason likes it long (most men do love that long hair). So once I can get it to the length that it was when he was deployed (back in January - family pic to the right) maybe I can get extensions and get it longer. Then one day it will be long like it was YEARS ago!! MANY years ago. I just want to look really pretty and make him happy.

So bright and early.. it's floor exercises, weights and my ab lounger.... and no more cutting my hair!

Night all! :-)

update on the template.

2005-11-10T21:16:00.000-06:00

Well I have been pretty busy the past few days, too busy to blog... ha, but you may have noticed I made a few adjustments to the template of my blog, not many....but a few minor changes. hmmm but I had time to do that so I guess I better blog a little too. :-) I am so glad the weekend is almost here. I am so ready for a break. The girls are out of school tomorrow (Veteran's Day) and they are really excited about having a long weekend. We really don't have any specific plans. Well I do have to get all these leaves up out of my yard.

I got to talk to Jason today, not via web cam - as he was having internet problems, but on the phone. It was still great to talk to hear his voice. I can't believe he will be home soon to visit. Christmas is right around the corner and my sweetie will be here for two weeks!!!

Well gotta go.. one of my favorite shows just came back on... "Making the Band 3".

Have a great night everyone!!

Today....

2005-11-08T12:23:00.000-06:00

Well so far today is going pretty good.

Erin and I got up and finished up her homework. I got the kids out the door to school. Erin called me about 8:30 a.m. She had left her ID badge and purse at home (which has her lunch money in it she said). The purse was in the middle of the floor (with all the other things Hayden had dumped in her room last night). Her purse was opened and some of the items were hangin out ie. her ID badge and some lotion, etc, I looked in and noticed her lunch money was missing. So I put a few dollars in there so she could eat today. I know she said the money was in there and I am thinking while Hayden went on his ramage last night he probably took the money out. hmmm where would he have put it? If I could just read the mind of a 3-year-old.

At 12:00 I went to pick up Hayden from 3K. He had a good day and seemed in great spirits! He is laying down now ready for his nap. I am taking a small break from my typing (medical transcription) to blog and make some cookies for the kids. Then it's right back to work until I go pick up the girls from school at 2:45 pm.

So I hope you all have an excellent day.. and I am praying my evening goes smoothly!!!

Update: (3:20 pm)..... YEAH..Erin doesn't have as much homework tonight (which is good), I just hope that doesnt mean we get swamped with it tomorrow night (Wednesday night church). Ohhh Erin actually already had her lunch money (she had already put it in her lunch account). So little Hayden didnt take it. :-)

AHHHH AHHHHH and more AHHHHH

2005-11-07T22:03:00.000-06:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I just want to scream and cry... I really do (ok, I am crying.. Im just trying not to scream). I am even more stressed than I was earlier tonight. DEEP BREATH!!!! I can handle this all on my own.. I can. I know I can! I can do it!!

Erin and I just got finished with MOST of her homework (that we started on at 5:00 pm - break to eat, break for baths.). So we will get up EARLY in the morning and finish the rest of it (Lord help me to NOT over sleep, so we can get this finished in the morning.. PLEASE). Please let Erin get a well rested night so she will be well prepared in the morning.

Alex was a doll and helped me with Hayden while Erin and I studied and did her homework. However, Alex laid down to go to bed (bless her heart) and Hayden (3 yrd old) was supposed to be in bed (uhhhhh) yet he got up and destroyed my living room by getting into some of Erin's beads and pouring them in the carpet. So I have to go clean up that mess (Oh what a mess - he also made a mess in Erin's room - got out her toys and stuffed animals and dumped them in her floor. Believe me I gave him a spanking for it too because when I asked him about it he lied and said he didn't do it). Why did he do it? Maybe he was mad at me for telling him to go play while I helped Erin with homework? I don't know???? :-(

oh.. I need to clean up the mess from dinner (that I never got to earlier) My kitchen is a mess and I always clean up right after I cook, but I had other things to do... so I gotta go do it now.

Then I will be up for another hour or so typing (my medical transcription). I just don't want to stay up too late as I will have to get up early with Erin. However, I need to work and make money too!!!! :-(

Lord help me!! Please.. give me strength, give me patience!

Gifts....from Jason

2005-11-07T19:21:00.000-06:00

Although I am extremely STRESSED out.... (see post below), I do have to say I got another box from my Sweetie today! He has found this lovely shop in Germany (World Famous Kathe Wohlfahrt) that sells "smokers" (beautiful wood carved incense burners) and many other beautiful items. I got a "smoker" last week from him (a beautiful wooden carved snowman). He sent the kids (well the girls) "smokers" today. Erin got a lady bug, Macie got a frog, and Alex got a kitty cat. He sent Hayden this wooden dragon toy that hangs from a bouncy coil. He also sent me a beautiful snowman (This one was not made in Germany) that lights up. I love snowmen!!

Anyway.. back to the "smokers". Here is the history of the smoker.

The incense Smoker originates from Christmas traditions begun by the Erzgebirge miners. This history of the smoking fellows dates back to 1580 when the first of these lovable Smokers were crafted to resemble smoking Turks.

During the Middle Ages it was not proper for Christians in Saxony to smoke in public. The habits of the Eastern spice peddlers, however, impressed and inspired the Saxons. Today Smokers come in many styles, but woodcrafters predominantly choose figures that reflect traditional village life. Kathe Wohlfahrt continues this tradition with carefully hand painted, cheerful smokers called "Holzknoddls".

Here is a link to their web page (showing some of the "smokers" that they sell). https://shop.wohlfahrt.com/

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

2005-11-07T17:48:00.000-06:00

I am SOOOO stressed out today!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord help me PLEASE,

Help me to handle all that I have on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Teaching....

2005-11-06T21:56:00.000-06:00

You may recall that I was going to be a helper to one of the Children's Sunday School classes and also teach the class once a month as well (Girls ages 8-12). I was really looking forward to helping out in this class. I honestly felt the teacher needed me in there because many of the girls in the class were very disrespectful to her and would not listen to the lesson, but instead talked to each other, fiddled with their belongings, made jokes, got up and moved around, etc (all during the lesson). For those of you who know me, I am pretty outspoken and am just not the type to put up with this. I dont put up with that behavior from my children at home, and surely would not put up with it from children in a class room. I believe teachers deserve respect (whether that teacher be a teacher at school, Sunday school, children's church, pastors, and yes even parents - as we too are teachers). When teachers speak, pupils should listen! Now don't get me wrong... I'm not Sgt. Mom!.. or Sgt Deanne. I'm not so strict that you can't have any fun, but I do believe pupils owe their teachers respect. I believe I would have been a positive influence on that classroom.

However, our Sunday Morning Bible Study is about to undergo some new changes/reorginzation (for the children's teachers....again). They are moving around some teachers, combining some classes, etc. They do want me to teach, but it would not be for a set class. There are four children's classes they want me to rotate through. See each of these four teachers would get an "off day" once every six weeks. I would be their substitute teacher. Therefore I would be rotating classrooms four times in a six week period (I would get two Sundays where I could go to the Women's class as I would not be teaching). However, I would also be available those two Sundays to be the emergency fill-in, if someone could not make it. This would entail me having and knowing the lessons for all four classrooms. I was excited when I was first asked to do this, but as I sat down and thought about it, and prayed about it, I just don't think its in God's timing for me to take on this responsibility. God knows I have my plate FULL now with Jason being gone and all the responsiblity I am having to take care of at home (with the kids). I think I could handle being a helper and teaching once a month, but to do this...is just too much for me (right now). I know the church needs me, but my family needs my sanity right now, and I just don't think I can juggle all of this.

I am needing to focus more time with my work, and especially my kids, and making sure they have what they need from me. I will continue to pray about this and know the Lord will let me know when the timing is right.

ohhhh what a day!!!

2005-11-06T11:39:00.000-06:00

Saturday

I picked Erin up from her friend's house. They had a GREAT time Friday night. I am so glad that Erin was able to go. Then at 4:30 the kids and I had another B'day party to attend (their friend Sheldon - who was turning 7). His party was at Skateland. They had so much fun. They ate pizza, bday cake and ice cream, skated, played games. Hayden put on some little skates and skated too. Some little kid came around Erin and knocked her down. She fell right on her tail bone. OUCH!! It hurt for a while, but she is ok. Well the party ended at 6:30 pm and we headed home. After getting home all the kids were getting baths. It was time for me to give Hayden a bath and as I went to take his clothes off he had large red WHELPS all over his body!!!! He was scratching profusely too! Oh no!!! He must have had an allergic reaction to something (what ... I don't know). Anyway I gave him a cool bath, gave him some medicine, and let him lay in my bed. The medicine kicked in quickly and he seemed to be ok. With my obligations at church the next morning, I decided I better make some calls. So I called our Associate Pastor to let her know I would not be there for "nursery" and they would have to get someone to cover me. I also called our Music Pastor to let him know I would not be there to sing in the choir.

Sunday Morning

When Hayden woke up the whelps were gone ... however I still decided to keep him home from church (sometimes heat will bring them back up). I still needed to take Alex to church as she had a speaking part in the song they were performing this morning. Erin said her tail bone was still sore (from falling last night) so she stayed home with me. My dad "Big Daddy" is going to bring Alex home from church. I am so happy for Alex that she got a speaking part. She has never been picked before for a speaking part and this just really made her day!!

Web Cam!!!!!!!!!!

2005-11-04T18:08:00.000-06:00

Yeah!!!!! Jason finally got internet in his room (again). Its been 3 months since we have been able to talk via our web cams/instant messenger. As most of you know Jason was moved to another base, where they were placed in temporary housing, then finally got moved to the housing where they will be staying, and NOW he has internet connection! It was soooooo awesome to see his smile, to see his face when we talked. Hayden was really excited about seeing daddy on the computer. Hayden (who is 3) has really really missed him so much (and it seemed to get worse during the 3 months that he couldnt talk to us over the web cam). So now maybe Hayden won't have so many bad nights anymore. It's hard on us, but it makes it easier when we get to communicate with Jason this way.

Please keep Jason in your prayers. I am really worried about him. He seems to be having some problems (from his TBI - Traumatic Brain Injury - from March 2004). He says he feels as though his head is a little bigger in the site where the limb struck his head/where he had surgery. This SCARES me!!!! Also near his temple he says it is very tender and hurts to touch it. I have begged him to go to the doctor, but he says he is just too busy! I don't know what to do, but just pray about this and stay on him about going to the doctor. I think he is scared to go!!! Please pray about this situation.

Well Erin is off to the slumbar party for her friend Madison. They are going out-to-eat and to the movies to see Chicken Little. There will be a total of 5 girls. They should have a blast tonight!

Alex and Hayden have a BIG fluffy pallet in front of the 62" wide screen - with the surround sound going watching movies (Robots right now, and then the next on on the list is Racing Stripes). Oh and of course they are eating popcorn too.. sounds like fun!! Hey, I think I will go join them. :-)

((Hugs)) to all. Have a great night!

She got an A+

2005-11-03T15:36:00.000-06:00

Yeah.... Erin got 105/100 on her test today! Yep she got an A+ and even got the bonus question correct. I knew she could do it!

So it looks like she will be going to the slumber party.

One tuff momma!

2005-11-02T23:12:00.000-06:00

I know sometimes my girls probably think I am too tough on them, but I have to be. They may not realize it, but it is for their own good. I may be tough, but its tough LOVE! See, I have seen other kids (kids who go to school with them, and yes even kids they go to church with) who have the worst attitudes, talk and act hateful, and have no respect for others (their peers and adults) and I simply will not allow my children to be that way. If I tell my children to do something, I expect them to do it. I shouldn't have to repeat myself multiple times, and threaten to whip or ground them, and then not follow through with it, and them get away with doing whatever they want. What kind of lesson is that? What have I taught them if they can get away with anything? So if the rule is you are supposed to do "this" and you don't then "this will be the consequence" and sometimes that consequence can be pretty strict. Like, not going skating, and/or not getting to go the slumber party and movies with your friends. Its hard, and it breaks my heart to do it.

Erin seems to be going through a hard time. If I don't keep my foot down now, I will regret it later. She is a sweetheart and so loving, but she has gotten to where she does not want to clean her room (which she knows is a very important rule of mine). She also is not bringing home all of her homework, not studying for tests, and not asking for help in subjects she needs help with. She was on a 3 strike you're out system with me this week (concerning whether if she was going to be able to go the slumber party this coming weekend). She had not been doing what I asked and I was really stressed out and simply fed up with it this week. Then today she brings me her planner showing me where one of her teachers (Social Studies) was having me sign where she made bad marks on two tests. I was so disappointed. I asked her why she did so poorly and she said she didn't study. I asked her why she didnt study and she said she didn't know.

Erin and I skipped church tonight. I took Alex to church and went back and picked her up. Erin and I stayed home and went over her math homework (which she really struggles with math). We also went over her Social Studies test (which is tomorrow - Thursday). She did GREAT!!! I asked questions, she got the answers.. it was so easy. I asked her why she did so well on this with us practicing and failed the other two. She said she just didn't study for them. So we made a pact that as soon as she gets in from school she is to get a snack and a drink then she is to bring ALL of her homework in MY bedroom and I will sit down with her while she does her homework. I want to know of EVERY test she is going to have and I want to review that with her nightly. I will just have to stop my typing (Medical Transcription) at 3:00 pm after I pick them up from school and just start back on it after they go to bed at night (which is why I am still up now). Anyway it took Erin and I a while tonight to get her homework and studying done, but we did it and when we were done she felt better (and more confident). However I admit it was hard to do with Hayden also wanting attention - MAN I miss Jason being home I sure could use his help!!!!!!.

I had previously told Erin that because of two poor test scores (and I am talking REALLY BAD) that she could not go to the slumber party. However I told her that if she did exceptionally well on the test tomorrow then she could go to the slumber party Friday night. She was excited..but I told her she had to do really well. So yes, I caved.. (a little). But I still think she sees how serious I am. AND she still has to do exceptionally well on that test to go (it has to be GREAT in order to bring up her grades). I am confident that she will do well tomorrow.

Life is so hard as it is with being a mom and taking care of the kids, homework, etc.. and I miss Jason so much!!! I am so stressed out lately... I just keep smiling and acting like everything is ok, but I am really stressed out! I don't want people to feel sorry for me and think I am weak... I want to be strong and make Jason proud of me for handling this all on my own.. but sometimes I don't feel like I'm doing a good job! But that's just the devil trying to get me down.. "ok girl" (talking to myself now..haha).. "keep on smiling and doing your best"!!!

Trick-or-Treat 2005

2005-11-01T13:57:00.000-06:00

Hey everyone, we had an awesome time last night. We went to my brother-in-law Mike and his wife Julie's house. They invited a big group of people over and we cooked out and also went trick-or-treating. Here are a few of the pictures I took.

This is the group of kids we took Trick-or-Treating.

Here is Tori (their cousin) and Erin.

Here is my other kitty, Alex.

My Cowboy, Hayden. The flash washed him out in this pic, but I loved the smile and how the hat was tilted!

Hayden and Chris (their cousin) cathing a ride at the end of the night.

This photo was actually taken at the school party. It is of Presley (my friend Amy's daughter) and Hayden.

Don't Touch My Pumpkin - LAST YEAR

2005-10-30T22:06:00.000-06:00

I want to share this pic with you. It is a picture of Jason and the kids last year carving pumpkins. Alex touched Hayden's pumpkin and he got a little upset and started moving his arms really fast...so I titled the photo "Don't touch my pumpkin".

This year we didn't carve pumpkins (I just don't have the same touch at it as Jason does), but we did decorate and do have two ceramic pumpkins that we can place candles in on the porch. I am looking forward to the kids getting dressed up and having fun tomorrow night. The kids are really excited too. And of course I will be posting pictures of them in their costumes for everyone to see.

PS. I really miss Jason!!! I miss his daily presence in our lives and I miss all the special things he does for me and the kids! I love him sooooo much!!

Playing catch-up.

2005-10-30T21:38:00.000-06:00

Saturday
Hey guys... I hope you have had a great weekend! Its time for me to play catch up so you will know what I have been doing since my last post. WELL.. to start off I actually did not work this weekend the way I had planned. GOOD FOR ME!! That's why I am up tonight working (haha). I did what I should have done and that is enjoy my weekend with the kids. We slept in a little (very little) Saturday morning and then cleaned house. We were all excited about the Halloween Carnival that was going to take place at Hayden's school (which is also a church) Saturday night. His cousin Chris (who also goes to 3K there) and his mom, dad, and sister went as well. We had a great time.. There was moon walks, giant blow up slides, a giant blow up caterpillar that you walk through, a cake walk, face painting, go fishing, a treasure dig, and lots of other games to play. They had so much fun!!!

Sunday
This morning we had to be at church bright and early (8:00 am) so that we (the choir) could practice. Today was the day I was to teach the 8-12 year old girls, however the teacher that normally has the class stayed in there with me (She had the remaining part of the lesson - the game they were to play - as I was unable to get it from her Wednesday night because Alex was sick). She ended up teaching the lesson and I just helped out where needed and helped control the kids (its a really large class). We had previously talked about me teaching the class one Sunday a month, but then she started talking about how large the class was and how it could be divided into two classes. I told her I would be more than willing to take on half the class or to go in there with her every week. She was really excited about this. After church she thanked me and mentioned how she would like me in there to help her where needed and she would teach the lesson. I am grateful to help, but I am hoping that atleast one Sunday a month I will be able to teach the lesson. I will pray about this and allow the Lord to direct us both in what His Will is.

Well... I am going to be up late tonight typing (Medical Transcription)... so that my download file is empty in the morning and I can start downloading NEW work. Like I said before... it being the end of the month is important!! I get paid for what work I do. What ever is submitted by midnight on the 1st...goes on my Nov paycheck... so I plan on being busy tonight, tomorrow and tomorrow evening (after trick-or-treating of course).

Night all!! ((Hugs))

Courtney came and hung out with us...

2005-10-27T17:39:00.000-05:00

Today didn't go anyway the way I had planned...I had planned on buckling down really hard, not emailing with friends, not doing anything around the house, just strictly putting my all into my work. I even had taken Hayden to school for three hours this morning. I did get some work done, but around noon or so my little sister (Courtney) came by to visit with us. So not working was well worth it as I love to spend time with my sister. We hung out, talked, and made homemade doughnuts, then I went and got Erin from school (Alex stayed home one more day, but will be going back to school tomorrow). Then Courtney went and got her little puppy (black little poodle oh so adorable). The kids had a great time playing with the puppy. We had a great time spending the day with Courtney. It was a great day!!!

As far as my work, it looks like tonight will be a repeat of last night (where I stayed up till 1 am typing)...but its all good...I'm just tired thats all. :-)

I did talk to my Sweetie today, but we didnt talk quit as long today. However I was just glad to get to talk to him. I have good news......He said he will have the internet hooked up in his room NEXT friday!!!!! YEAH!!! I can't wait to see his face. I know the kids will enjoy getting to see him on the Web Cam again too.

Beautiful!!

2005-10-26T18:04:00.000-05:00

I got my bottle of "Beautiful Sheer" perfume delivered via Fed X today (from my Sweetie!!). It smells so beautiful!!

Jason and I talked on the phone for a long time today (you would not believe the cost of my phone bill lately - but he should have internet VERY soon and we can chat via web cam again)... anyway.... we talked for a long time today and we talked about our future, and all the things we are going to do when he gets home. I love and miss him soooooo much!! There are many nights that I just sit and cry missing him (last night being one of them). I just can't tell you how excited I am about his 2 week visit coming up in December. It can't get here soon enough. I miss my baby!!

Oh No...Alex is sick now!!!

2005-10-26T09:47:00.000-05:00

Hayden had it, then Erin got it, and I really thought that was the end of it...well.. now Alex has it. That yucky stomach virus that has been going around. She started getting sick this morning, but thankfully it doesnt seem to be to the degree that Hayden and Erin were. So hopefully her virus will be short lived and she will be better soon. Lift her up in prayer!

update...
Oh no.. I spoke too soon. Alex is just as sick as they were. I hate to see my children feeling so bad...

Hayden and the Dentist

2005-10-25T18:58:00.000-05:00

After recently having his teeth cleaned, Hayden was discovered to have a couple of cavities. This is my fault of course (he is only 3) as I have allowed him to go to bed every night with a sippy cup of ice cold sweet tea (decaf of course). This sugar sitting in his mouth is not good at all! We attempted to have these cavities filled at our family dentist, and although Hayden did good at his cleanings, he did not want to open his mouth good for the dentist that day. He was not bad at all, but just didn't want to cooperate. They had even given him something to "make him a little sleepy" (it was a thick substance he had to take an hour before his appointment on an empty stomach) but it didn't make him sleepy at all. So the dentist said she believed he would do better if he was seen by a "Pediatric Dentist". We scheduled that appointment and Hayden was seen today. The dentist was super nice as were all the assistants in his practice. There are 3 small cavities that need to be taken care of. Because Hayden would not cooperate before, this dentist said they will need to do "oral sedation". "Oral sedation is recognized by the American Academy of Pediatric Dentistry as a form of treatment for young children whose apprehension or fear prohibits them from being cooperative dental patients". However, insurance does not cover this and it will be an extra $150. When they sedate a patient, more time is spent during the dental procedure. His heart rate and oxygen saturation will be monitored during the procedure. Thus the extra charge to cover the cost of monitoring equipment, et. Also insurance pays for "silver fillings" and they only do "white".. so we have to pick up the extra cost of that as well. All in all the fee is about $510 (with us paying$352). It is scheduled for Nov 15th.

After the dentist this morning, Hayden and I ran by the thrift store (I love the thrift store, picked him out a toy, and a shirt to go with his "cowboy" costume). Then it was on the the grocery store...where among the groceries we bought we had to get "marshmallows". Hayden insisted on that one. Then it was home to get some work done, pick up the girls from school, back home to call my sister Courtney and sing to her for her 18th Bday, cook a big pot of chill (mmm mmm mmm good - on this nice cool fall day), help the girls with homework (and there is still more that I need to help them with, and here I am. I haven't gotten much typing (Medical Transcription)done today, so I will probably be up late tonight typing (but I am thinking about just getting up EARLY in the morning and instead just having some quiet time with God tonight and reading my Bible - As I need to get back into the habit of reading His word daily!!!).

Speaking of which, I sat in with the teacher for the girls 8-12 year old Sunday Morning Bible Study class this past Sunday. I am going to start teaching that class one (maybe two) Sundays a month (starting this coming Sunday the 30th). I am really excited about this opportunity that the Lord is going to use me.

Oh... Like I said above it's my little sister's 18th Birthday!
~ H.A.P.P.Y ~
~ B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y~

~ C.O.U.R.T.N.E.Y ~
We love you !!!!!

Finally Friday!!

2005-10-21T14:52:00.000-05:00

Well it's finally Friday.....

However, it really won't be much of a relaxing weekend for me. I am sooooo busy typing (medical transcription). One of the doctors left the practice and he has been dictating some jobs he never got around to dictating (from this past year). In addition a new doctor has come into the group and he is dictating jobs as well (and also the other physicians in the group). I am not complaining as I need the money, but I admit I am really tired. I stayed up again till 1 am typing, then got up at 7:30 am and started back. However with the kids home this week for Fall break, and Hayden and Erin both coming down with a stomach virus I haven't gotten as much done as I would like. So.. this weekend will be busy, busy, busy for me! The jobs are there and if I don't do them, one of the other transcriptionist will (and I prefer to do them and make the money!!).

Alex will be home from Indiana tomorrow, I am looking forward to seeing her. We have really missed her this past week.

The kids just got a package in the mail from Jason. He bought them some goodies.. . Erin collects keychains so Jason bought her several while in Germany. He bought Hayden some cars. He bought Alex "Barbie and the Magic of Pegasus" movie. She has been wanting this movie. Parts of it are in 3D and it comes with 4 pairs of glasses. He also bought the movies "Robots" "Lilo & Stitch 2", "Racing Stripes", "Kicking & Screaming" and also sent "The Pacifier". He sent the kids packs of stickers and some candy too.

He is buying me some perfume.. He wanted to know what fragrance I like. I told him "Beautiful" or "Beautiful Sheer". He is going to the PX to look for it tomorrow, or he may just order in on-line through Exchange AAEFS. He made a joke about how he can't smell (result of his traumatic brain injury March 2004) so he couldn't go and pickout a perfume he liked.

Well I can't blog long... I've got TONS to do!

yeah..look at the time!

2005-10-20T00:06:00.000-05:00

Look at the time of this post (below) . . . yeah I am usually NOT up this time of night/morning, however I have been putting in EXTRA hours working (Medical Transcription) to try and make some much needed money! With sick kids (yes more than Hayden has been sick - see below) and kids home from school for Fall Break this week, working during the day has been a little slow (but I'm working, just with tons of interruptions). So working late at night/early mornings is proving to be productive (although VERY tiring!!).

Ok... on to the sick kid part. As you know from reading my post below Hayden had a stomach virus. Alex who is out of town should be ok, and I even thought Erin was in the clear (as she spent Saturday and Sunday night away from home with friends) - yet I was wrong. Erin got sick shortly after getting home from church Wed night. Oh I felt so bad for her. I pray that the virus doesn't last long with her and she has a QUICK recovery!! I also pray that I DON'T get it! The Lord knows I have to take care of everyone and everything so if I got sick.. oh I don't even want to think it! It's not gonna happen.. I'm too stubborn! hehe.

Jason and I talked today. He FINALLY got to move into the other housing unit. He will be getting internet access in his room and hopefully within a couple of weeks it will be set up and we can use the Web Cam to chat and see each other. I have missed seeing that gorgeous face of his (love the dimples)!

Well, that's enough blogging for now...I gotta get back to typing (the kind that pays me $$$).

one long post!!!

2005-10-17T08:09:00.000-05:00

I’m back….yes once again it seems my “blogging” has slowed down. I know, I know that is not good (as blogging has been a way for me to let all these feelings out) and I know many of you worry about me, as I have gotten emails and cards in the mail. I hate getting “down” the way I have let myself get “down”. Talking about emotional too…uhhh I have been so emotional. I have cried about everything. I have felt OUT of control over several issues in my life. I have felt overwhelmed and I have felt like a disappointment. I want to be a better mother, I want to be a better wife, and I want to be better servant of our Lord!

So it appears this will be another one of those “long post” (Tracy…you said you enjoyed these).

Report Cards….
Alex (9-year-old 4th grader) got her report card and I was so proud of her (all A’s and one B). She is such a bright and intelligent little girl and loves to study. Honestly though she doesn’t have to study too much, things seem to come to her easily and she “gets it” the first time around.

Erin (11-year-old 6th grader) got her report card as well, however her report card was not that good at all. Erin is also a bright and intelligent young girl, but her study habits are much different. She struggles so hard to do good school! She has a hard time studying. She just doesn’t “get it” the first time around (and sometimes second time) and honestly needs more help! As a work-from-home mother, one of the things I enjoy about being home when the girls get home from school is having more time with them. I (just like Erin) suffer from ADHD (although mine has never been diagnosed and I am not on any medication, I have no doubt in my mind that I too suffer from ADHD – Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder), which has honestly affected me being able to help her. I pray victory over this that hinders Erin and me from being all the Lord has put in us to be. I am going to focus on and dedicate more time to helping Erin more with her homework, helping her to better comprehend what she is learning. Erin is such a bright and intelligent young girl and I don’t want anything to hinder what I know is inside of her.

Fall Break....
Alex and Erin’s dad (Michael) lives in Indiana. With this week being “Fall Break” the girls wanted to go see their dad. Michael made arrangements with his sister to drive them half-way yesterday. They both love their dad and really looked forward to seeing him. However, Alex is the only one who is going to be going on this trip. Erin has some issues with her step-mother (which I will not go into great detail here as I feel it is best not to), and really got her feelings hurt back during the summer where they spent 5 weeks with them. As much as Erin loves her dad, she just didn’t want to be around her step-mother. I pray the Lord will resolve these issues and that by their next trip Erin will be more comfortable in going up there, and that her step-mother (who is used to only have one child around her) – will better understand how to resolve issues among several children, and how to “speak to” a child without using foul language – ok enough said!!

Alex headed out Sunday morning and was really exited about going to see their dad (step brother, older step-sister, and step-mom). Alex has this sweetness about her that everyone is drawn to and loves…and I have no doubt that she will get lots of attention this next week (which she will love). Alex has been apart from me and Hayden (and obviously Jason) before as she has made trips to visit their dad out of state, but she has never been separated from Erin for this long. I know it is only a week, but Alex seemed a little down and knew she would miss her sister. We hugged and kissed and said our goodbyes and I told her to have fun and enjoy the time with their dad. As her and her aunt Kerri drove away, I prayed a hedge of protection around them during the trip and during her visit with their dad.

Erin had spent the night with her best friend Kim Saturday night. Erin does not have any classes with Kim this year, and their classes and lockers are in two different buildings. She does see Kim in the lunchroom, however they are not able to sit together. Erin truly values Kim’s friendship. She said that Kim is her friend, not because of what Erin has, or what Erin looks like; Erin doesn’t have to try to impress Kim, but that Kim likes her for simply being who she is. That is something that I am very proud of Erin for realizing. As she enters middle school she sees people already trying to impress others by not being true to who they are, conforming to ways they would not necessarily be in order to become friends with a certain crowd, etc. Erin is such a beautiful girl and I am so proud of her for being true to who she is.

Erin also spent last night (Sunday night) away from home....with their friend Kayla (who lives down the street). Since it is “Fall Break” this week and Kayla’s dad was staying home today, I agreed to let her spend the night on a Sunday night. Also…it has kept her away from Hayden (who has been sick!!).

Yes….now on to Hayden….
Hayden was originally sick with his sinuses, but late Saturday afternoon Hayden developed a stomach virus! Ohhhh he was soooo sick. He vomited almost every hour from about 6 pm Saturday until about 1 pm Sunday. However, he was taking in fluids so I didn’t fear him become dehydrated. He seems fine today!!! I used almost a whole can of Lysol spraying down everything so that hopefully no one else will get sick!

Financial and Work
I am praying and agreeing the Lord will bless me with a financial blessing and that my work will increase and I will be able to organize my time more efficiently to use my time to be a great mother to my kids and supply the needs of my children through the income in my job (and pay the bills that I am supposed to pay – which Jason pays the majority of them).

Jason….
Jason and I talked on the phone yesterday and had a great time. Our conversation seemed to flow so smoothly and there were not any quiet times. We truly enjoyed our conversation and I didn’t feel that distance between us like I had before. I have prayed over this and prayed that we would not grow distant from each other during this deployment but that we would grow closer!! I love my husband so much…and look forward to his visit home at Christmas!!!

Well… This has been ONE long post, and I do have LOTS of work to type, so this is where I will close it for today. God bless you all ((hugs to everyone)).

12:40 pm... oh no sick again!!
Hayden had been feeling better all day.....THEN we had to go run and errand and on the way home he got sick in my car! So after getting that cleaned up, and Lysol sprayed, I am here a my computer again working. However, my head is throbbing!!! I hope this is not the first symptoms of me getting sick. Hayden is taking a nap now. Hoperfully he will rest and get well soon.

I've been "Tagged"

2005-10-13T08:46:00.000-05:00

Many of you may have heard of "tagging" on the blogs you have visited. Well I have been tagged once before, and now I have been tagged by Maegan from Peaceful Selah.

Here were my instructions for this "tag"

1. Go into your archives.
2. Find your 23rd post.
3. Post the fifth sentence (or closest to it).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag five other people to do the same thing.

So I did a little researching. My 23rd post was titled "Good Morning" and the 5th sentence was "I got up and fixed them a hot breakfast instead of cereal or a waffle".

Now I must tag 5 others... ~big grin~

Stacy
April
Julie
GI Wife
Al's Girl

This was funny to go back and read some of my old posts.....as this morning I got up and again fixed a hot breakfast for TWO of my children (one still wanted those frozen blue berry waffles). I also got up and baked cookies "Triple Chocolate Fudge" cookies.. mmm mmm good! Ok, I know I'm not supposed to be eating them (I made them for the KIDS) but I confess I did have one. hehe.

Ahhhh Tri-Care!!! &%@#$

2005-10-12T09:08:00.000-05:00

Ok, I gotta calm down!!! Deep breath!! whew!!

To make a long story short... my husband Jason was on STATE active duty back in 2004. He was injured while on active duty and had a traumatic brain injury, underwent surgery, and spent a month in the NICU! His recovery process was slow and his orders had to be extended (Medical Active Duty Extension) so that Tri-Care would continue to pay the medical bills and he would continue to get paid from the military. Tri-Care WAS paying the medical bills that had been sent to them, but the hospital had a mix up and sent some to BC/BS. Those bills have now been redirect to Tri-Care (who should have been billed for them). BUT NOW Tri-Care is DENYING the claims. Something about a lapse in coverage...they show the Active Duty Orders all wrong!! uhhhh It is a mistake in THEIR system!! So I am having to get his Commanding Officer from the time of his injury to take care of this so I don't get thousands and thousands of dollars of bills in my mail box from the hospital.

Of course Jason doesn't know all of this is going on (and it is the LAST thing he needs to be worrying about now) so I am trying to handle it. I have talked with the Commanding Officer this morning (which luckily is someone I know) and he is getting in contact with the State Military Department to get it taken care of.

Ok.. it can only get better.. right?

Good Morning....

2005-10-12T06:37:00.000-05:00

Good Morning all. Today I woke up and decided that I didn't need to be down and depressed. It was a choice I made! I reflected on a plaque that my oldest daughter Erin gave me "Lord Help me to remember that nothing is going to happen to me today that you and I together can't handle". God shall and will meet me where I need Him!! But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:19)

(Here is a old Hymn that I found in reference to the above scripture - "Just when I need Him most")

Just when I need Him, Jesus is near, Just when I falter, just when I fear; Ready to help me, ready to cheer, Just when I need Him most.

Just when I need Him most, Just when I need Him most, Jesus is near to comfort and cheer, Just when I need Him most.

Just when I need Him, Jesus is true, Never forsaking all the way through; Giving for burdens pleasures anew, Just when I need Him most.

Just when I need Him, Jesus is strong, Bearing my burdens all the day long; For all my sorrow giving a song, Just when I need Him most.

Just when I need Him, He is my all. Answering when upon Him I call; Tenderly watching lest I should fall, Just when I need Him most.

In my distress I called upon the LORD, and cried to my God: and he did hear my voice out of his temple, and my cry [did enter] into his ears. (2 Samuel 22:7)

Feeling down!

2005-10-11T17:25:00.000-05:00

I am going to be honest and let you all know I have been feeling really down this past week. PLEASE lift me up in prayer. I feel like I am under attack by Satan!

I KNOW I should be grateful and count the many blessings I have in my life, but to be honest I just feel like crying (and actually have done quite my share of that this week). I feel like my life has gone out of control and that I have lost so much joy and happiness. WHY?? Why am I feeling this way? I have a husband who loves me, children who are so precious to me, so why am I feeling like my world has turned upside down? I have been sick at my stomach, I have had ulcers in my mouth, I have had this pounding in my chest, and have had bouts of crying....DEVIL LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!

I got a card in the mail just a minute ago from a sweet girl named Maegan that visits my blog. She said I had been on her mind quite a bit lately. She was thinking of me and lifting me up in prayer. I thought that was so sweet...and honestly was JUST what I needed today!

Ok, I'm gonna get out my TLC Power Points (a list of scriptures I received from my church YEARS ago that I read when I need encouragement and want to be reminded of HIS promises). Here are a few of them....

..My angels bare me up in their hands
..I choose life and blessings
..I have perfect health and I prosper
..Wealth and riches are in my house
..I shall not lack any good thing
..My steps are ordered of the Lord
..No weapon formed against me shall prosper
..I am an overcomer
..My sleep shall be sweet
..Who forgives my sins and heals my disease
..Thank you Lord that all your promises in Jesus are Yes and Amen

Hayden sick

2005-10-11T17:21:00.000-05:00

Hayden started coughing yesterday and then last night he seemed really cranky! He woke up this morning coughing and had yucky mucus coming from his nose and eyes. Bless his heart! He looked like he felt horrible. Of course I kept him home from 3K and called the doctor's office. I spoke with the nurse and since he is not running fever they want me to just watch him (and give him Robitussin DM). He has an appointment scheduled already for Friday so unless he starts running fever, or becomes where he doesn't want to eat, etc I am to just watch him from home untill then. He has been pretty playful today, but I think I will keep him home from school tomorrow too.

Monday...again

2005-10-10T22:44:00.000-05:00

It's Monday...again. The kids are anxious to get this week over, as next week is their "fall break", which means no school next week.

Jason and I have been sending short and brief emails daily. He is sending them from the computer at the MP station. Hopefully soon he will be moved to the other housing and get internet access in his room. Our emails are short and sweet and we always tell each other how much we love and miss each other. HOWEVER our daily phone calls are much different. We have been pretty quiet and neither have had much to say. This has worried me!! Although I must realize that I am calling him right before he goes to bed and he is tired from a long day working. They have been working long hours and not getting much time off at all. I know it is extremly difficult for him to be so far away from all of us that he loves (as it is hard on us to be away from him). I am really looking forward to Christmas when he can come home and visit us for two weeks.

Well after getting the kids from school, and talking to my Sweetie on the phone, we ate dinner, got homework and reading finished, made cookies, got baths, and then I got some washing and cleaning done. The girls helped me too (I appreciate their help so much).

Ohhh Hayden and I played with this little chalkboard he has. He is so funny.. He is soooo into Halloween. We drew "pumpkins", "monsters", "ghosts", "scared cats", "spiders", and "bats" (see he named EACH of those things for me to draw). He said that pumpkins were his friends "because they have faces". He is such a character!! He is going to be a cowboy (holding a pumpkin) for Halloween. We are going to the Fall Festival at our church Halloween night. They have so much to do for the children and they have truly enjoyed it every year.

Well, the kids are sound asleep in bed and I am about to hit the sack myself. I have towells in the dryer, but they can be folded tomorrow. :-)

Sunday... A powerful Sunday!

2005-10-09T22:00:00.000-05:00

We had to be at church early this morning for Erin to practice with the Dance Troupe. The kids did a great job performing in front of the congregation and truly touched my heart!

Today our music pastor (Mike) stood in the gap at the alter for prayer for the praise team, musicians and choir. He is such an anointed man of God and I am humbly grateful to be under his leadership in the music ministry. I know he desires for us to go to another level spiritually and musically. I am so excited about all the Lord is doing through our church and how he is touching and changing lives. I am excited to be a part of this wonderful ministry.

Tonight we had our "Faith Builders" monthly conference and Rhonda H. spoke. She gave a powerful message on how we should live our daily lives as Christians. The words the Lord spoke through her ministered to me. She was so right, we should make time for the Lord DAILY.. we should put Him first (before our work, our cleaning, our activities, and yes even before our spouses and children - for when we put Him first....every thing else will fall into place). We truly do have time for him, like she said...you can pray and talk to God in your car, at your desk, and even in the bathtub. We must also take take to study His Word DAILY! His Word is our daily bread and without it we will go hungry!

A day at the museum

2005-10-08T22:11:00.000-05:00

My mother-in-law took me and the kids to Anniston today.

We went to visit The Anniston Museum of Natural History (http://www.annistonmuseum.org/). The exhibits were amazing, it was fun for me, grandma, and the kids. We loved it! Of course grandma let the kids stop by the "gift shop", which they of course loved! "Thank you grandma" :-)

We also went to the Berman Museum of World History (http://www.bermanmuseum.org/). I found it VERY interesting, and the kids enjoyed looking at everything too. The collection of artifacts, weapons, etc from all over the world in different eras was very intriguing and I could have personally spent more time looking at them, but the kids and grandma were getting hungry.

After the museums we stopped and enjoyed lunch at Red Lobster. It was so nice to get out of the house and enjoy some time away. Of course everytime we go somewhere I wish Jason was there with us. I think he would have really enjoyed everything we did and saw today.

Volunteering

2005-10-06T07:29:00.000-05:00

I have been so proud of Hayden, he is doing so much better in school. His little cousin also started this past week and is in the same class as him. His cousin has been getting in trouble some, but the teacher pulled Hayden to the side and told Hayden that she had been so proud of him and that he had done so good and that she didn't want him to misbehave just because someone else was (his cousin). She said Hayden said "yes maam". He did good all week.

The girls are busy as ever with school/homework, church, etc.

Yesterday Jason told me that they are asking for "volunteers" to stay an additional six months. If they don’t have enough volunteers I assume they will make people stay. Jason said some people have already volunteered. I am praying that Jason doesn’t have to stay any longer than June 2006!!

I am feeling really stressed out and overwhelmed lately, but I know everything will be ok.

Shopping!!!

2005-10-03T22:11:00.000-05:00

A lady that I go to church with had sent me an email about a place called Kids Market and Mom http://www.kidsmarketandmom.com . It is a consignment shop that takes place twice a year (spring and fall) and only last two weeks. I took the girls and bought them some clothes. WOW! Named brand clothing in great shape for great prices!! THAT is my kind of deal. I didn't have Hayden with me (Grandma kept him) as he had recently gotten some new clothes, plus it would have been too hard to shop with him there, but I do believe I am going to go back before it ends this Saturday and get him some things also. The clothes are only for kids. However, as some kids wear "juniors" I am in luck (yeah, clothes for me too). So I want to go back and get me a few things also. They closed at 6 pm and we shopped until it was time to close. One of the ladies that works there had her son helping out. He looked to be about Erin's age (11). He told his mom that he was going to help me carry all the clothes to our car (I thought that was nice, but honestly I think he was doing it because of my pretty red headed daughter!!). After helping us to the car, I gave him a tip for helping us. Anyway, I plan on going back this week and going back in the spring, and next year too. I also plan on being a contributor and consigning the kids clothes (with 4 kids, you can imagine we have TONS of clothes that they outgrow).

Busy, Busy, Busy

2005-09-29T22:54:00.000-05:00

Yep... the word "busy" doesn't seem to justify what all is going on in my life. You may have noticed I haven't been "blogging" as much since the girls got back in school and since Hayden started 3K a few days a week. I have just been really busy (oh there is that word again).

With Hayden in 3K, I have been really busy trying to get my transcription done (but still don't feel like I am where I should be in my work). Of course Hayden only goes to school three mornings a week, so I have him home with me the remainder of the time. He is really enjoying school (and for those who have been reading my blog a while.. I am happy to tell you that he is doing so much better with his behavior in school). He still acts out some (but of course he is 3!!!). I have been disciplining him more (which is hard for me to "spank" him - but I have made myself do it ... as the "corner and time out" or "taking a toy away" hasn't seemed to work with him - but me spanking him - and explaining WHY I am spanking him - has made a dramatic difference). He knows momma means business!!

He is such a blessing though. Even though at times he can make me so frustrated, he simply has the sweetest smile and the most beautiful blue eyes that will just melt my heart! He can turn that little head sideways and hug me and tell me he loves me and... like I said ...my heart just melts. He is so funny too... he is quite the little comedian!

The girls have been busy with school. Alex is doing really good in school and I am so proud of her. She is really putting forth so much effort to making good grades, studying, and she LOVES to read. She is really good about getting her homework done, and I go over a few things with her (spelling words, etc), but I don't have to spend too much time with her on homework. However, we do need to continue to practice those multiplication flash cards.

Alex has such a sweet demeanor. She is such a girlie girl and loves to play with toys that a lot of girls her age have outgrown...she loves hello kitty, loves to wear pink and loves to have her hair fixed and be all dolled up. She truly loves the Lord and enjoys reading the bible and learning about the Lord. She is such a blessing to me and truly puts a smile on my face.

Erin has been a busy girl lately and really enjoying being at the middle school, however I think she may be enjoying it too much. She has made a lot of new friends this year, and that is good, BUT... (don't you always hate it when there is a "but") anyway.. she seems to be struggling in school some, not as focused, and not getting homework completed like she should. See, I was trying to give her a little more "responsibility" and wasn't checking to make sure she did all her homework, but was relying on her to get it completed and trusting that she was (of course I was there to help with anything she need help with). This was all going ok in the beginning. We were studying and staying busy, but then when she quit coming to me for help, so I figured she was doing good on her own. WRONG... I got a note from one of her teachers saying she wasn't completing her homework. I told her she had to be responsible and follow through with what she was supposed to do (and if she didn't know how or was unsure about something to ask me for my help). So I realized I am going to have to check her "school planner" daily and ask to see the homework she has done each night, and help her wherever she needs help (this may also include cutting back on some of the phone calls from her friends that call during the week if it interferes with getting homework done). So we have been busy (oh that word again) with school work and studying.

Erin is such a beautiful girl (inside and out). She loves to do crafts, loves to write, listen to music, talk on the phone and hang out in her room (she loves monkey stuff). She also loves to worship the Lord and loves to sing. I am truly blessed every time I see her perform at church, or catch her singing and worshiping when she doesn't know I am looking. She is a blessing to my life in so many ways!

Parenting is hard work (especially since I am doing it all alone), but it is also a blessing beyond compare! I pray blessings and protection over my children daily! I pray that God will let me be the Godly mother that my children need.

Work is keeping me busy too... I am doing more, but like I said, I still don't feel like I am where I want to be. I need to figure out and readjust my schedule to get more done. Being busy with the kids, and the housework, and working from home takes it toll on me, but its not beyond my limits. I can do it!! (I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength!!!).

This week has been "busy" (yep that word again) at church as well. We had choir practice Tuesday night (and the kids had their practice Tuesday night as well) for this upcoming special Sunday we are having (see post below this one). Then Wednesday night the kids had practice again and then we had a midweek service. In addition to doing my daily work, chores and activities at home, I volunteered at the church Tuesday morning and got some things done there, and am going back again tomorrow morning (Friday) to help out where needed. I also have dozens of flyers to pass out and posters to hang up in the community tomorrow. I am really looking forward to this Sunday...as it will be a monumental service for our church and for the Lord!

Jason and I have been getting to talk on the phone a lot. He is really working a lot, but found out that he will actually be getting two days in a row off this weekend YEAH (the first time he has had a weekend off). BUT then he only gets 4 off days the rest of October (basically one every six days). He also found out that they will be moving to another base/living quarters mid October. This is about 30 minutes from the base they work. The living quarters will be much better than where he is living now. ALSO... that means that he will be able to get internet access in his room. However, it will take a few weeks after he gets there to get it set up... so we are looking at another month before he can use his web cam. I am sooo excited about this!!!!

OH.. he seems to be worried that they will NOT let them come home end of May/June.. and that they will keep them longer. Like I said in a previous post that base is closing in August of 2006 so he is worried they will not let them go in June 2006 and make them stay until the base closes. I pray this doesn't happen!!

Smiles everyone!!! Well I hope you all have a blessed evening and a great day tomorrow, and a wonderful weekend. Hopefully I will get to post again soon (if not, you just may have to endure another long post).

A mighty move of God upon our church!

2005-09-26T22:42:00.000-05:00

This Sunday, October 2, 2005 the Crouch Family of Trinity Broadcasting Network (TBN http://www.tbn.org) will be visiting my church. They will be speaking, along with Brother Richard Scrushy (and his lovely wife Leslie Scrushy) (http://morningviewpoint.com). Matt Crouch will also be showing a clip from their new movie "A Night With The King" an epic retailing of the story of Esther.

A mighty move of God is at hand and great and mighty things are being done in our church. "Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not" (Jeremiah 33: 3). We have called out to Him and are claiming the promises of God!

I know that God does have a special plan for each of our lives! See, we can use our God given abilities, big or small, in ways that will lead people around us to the Lord. I just want to place myself at Christ's disposal for service to others. I want to humble myself before Him and let the Holy Spirit guide me and allow me to be empowered by Him to lead others to know Him. Im so excited about what the Lord will use me for, the future of our church, the lives that will be changed, and the souls that will be saved.